Subtitles by the Hug Me If You Can Team @ Viki
Timing by kitty100
Translating by mankchin_139, skybluebluie_281
Editing by kakashiandme, xomachi
♫ Without realizing it, I fell in love with him ♫
♫ How do I express it? ♫
♫ Where's my courage gone? ♫
♫ All these people in the way ♫
♫ can't stop me from loving you ♫
♫ Forget those romantic words ♫
♫ I just want to melt away the ice around you ♫
♫ Let's just keep going like this ♫
♫ For all the summers and winters in my life ♫
♫ Without realizing it, I fell in love with him ♫
♫ How do I express it? ♫
♫ Where's my courage gone? ♫
♫ All these people in the way ♫
♫ can't stop me from loving you ♫
♫ Forget those romantic words ♫
♫ I just want to melt away the ice around you ♫
♫ Let's just keep going like this ♫
♫ For all the summers and winters in my life ♫
[I Cannot Hug You]
[Episode 6]
We're home.
I'm home.
I finally knew about his secret. I am actually quite sad.
No. No matter how hungry I am, I cannot take advantage of people.
But if I miss out on this chance,
I don't know when the next time will be.
That's why, I will just touch him for 5 seconds.
No...10 seconds...
Zhihao, so sorry.
Don't leave me.
Qingran, this is your first time doing a psychological consultation, right?
It will be alright. A lot of people are like you. They have some hesitations in doing consultations like these.
But our job is to resolve your problem and keep it a secret.
I haven't been sleeping well recently. I am having the same dream again.
Again? You also experienced a similar situation before?
When I was in high school, I had a crush on a senior of mine.
I really liked him a lot.
But suddenly, he dropped out from school and left.
I mustered the courage to ask him why.
How did he answer you then?
He came over and smiled at me.
Then he said goodbye.
Afterwards, he just disappeared from my life.
Since then, I frequently dreamt of his goodbye.
Slowly, I stop having that dream
and was able to walk out from the blow he gave me.
So why did you start having this dream again?
Because...I saw him again.
I know that this sounds very mystical.
But seeing him standing in front of me, alive and well,
I felt that those 10 years of pain and questions didn't mean anything anymore.
I feel that in the past, it was just your defense mechanism to address some of the regrets you had at that time.
But when you saw him again, you were taken back to that scene in your heart.
Actually, it is very easy to solve this problem.
Once you are able to let go of these regrets, you will naturally stop thinking of them.
I understand.
This is a medication to treat insomnia short-term. It is not that addictive.
But you can only take one tablet a day. If you have any questions, you can call me anytime.
Thank you, Sister Lanxi.
You're welcome.
[I really enjoyed myself yesterday.]
I really enjoyed myself last night?
How come she sent me four pages yesterday?
What exactly happened between us?
I finally heard of the reason. It seems that his germophobia
originated from his family.
You still haven't given up?
I am already nearing victory. Why would I give up?
If you wanted to succeed, you could have just pounced on him when he was drunk.
Do I look like a beast that will...
take advantage of others? Do I?
I admit that I indeed touched him, but I can't endure it anymore.
Also, I only touched him by this much.
I already felt very guilty.
Just this much. So in short, you did touch him.
That is because his story was so saddening. I couldn't help it.
Also, after our talk yesterday, I confirmed that he indeed wants to change himself.
That's why, as long as I help him overcome his childhood psychological trauma, then—
What are you planning to do?
It might sound a bit being nosy, but the best way to resolve this matter
is to let him see his mother.
As long as he meets up with his mother, then everything might change.
Hey, I am not asking you how you plan to treat him.
I am asking you what are you planning to do, Li Shiya!
- Me? - That's right. Eating while dating?
Dating?
Looks like I never really thought about it.
After curing his germophobia, what will I do next?
Until today, it has always been others who come near me first.
All I thought about was that after I cure him, I can touch him.
Although in dating, it is natural that we'd touch each other,
but doesn't dating also require that both parties like each other?
Zhihao?!
How do you feel? Do you feel better?
What's wrong with him?
That was so scary. What should I do now?
So awkward.
Hello.
What to do? What must I do so I won't bump into her?
I really am going crazy.
It has already been the 3rd day.
This is illogical.
It's impossible for her to just send me so many pages.
There must be some special thing that happened.
But...I can't really go ask her, right?
[Travels of Pipo]
[He Bangyuan]
Who is it?
Why are you back this soon?
Miss Li Shiya, this is my gift for you.
You really got this award?! I initially was worried for you.
You had such tough competitors. I was afraid that you wouldn't win, and would show up at my house crying nonstop.
When have I cried in front of you? Tell me.
Hey, where is Shihuan?
How come he didn't come? Did the conjoined twins get separated?
Shihuan's plane hasn't taken off yet. I prematurely ended my activities there and came back.
Because I wanted to see you.
How come there is no email?
What are you looking at?
Nothing.
Li Shiya...
You are acting weird lately.
You have suddenly become very mysterious. Say it. Are you hiding secrets from me now?
Isn't it normal to have secrets? We're not kids anymore.
When you're an adult, you tend to have some private life.
I understand the principle of it, but...
I don't like it.
I have to go. The reporters will be starting work soon.
Going now. Bye-bye.
Hello.
Oh, you want the telephone number of the author of Travels of Pipo?
Telephone numbers are private information so we cannot give it to you.
If you insist on a way to communicate with her, we can give you her e-mail address.
Okay. Okay. I've noted down the e-mail.
Thank you. So sorry to have troubled you.
So great. I finally found a way to communicate with her.
Mommy! Mommy! What should I do with this?
Sweetie...
Fried Chicken must have been this happy
when he was younger and still with his mother.
Okay, I know.
It seems like I haven't seen him smile despite knowing him for this long.
Thinking about it, my life has always been very lively.
I have never experienced his kind of loneliness.
Because I am a vampire whose looks are way superior to humans',
ever since I was little, people who like me have always flocked around me.
At home, we three siblings were always able to turn life into a great commotion.
Also, I always had friends who stayed by my side.
Cheers!
I really can't imagine the despair and helplessness of being abandoned by your family.
Having no one to rely on. Encapsulating himself to prevent getting hurt by the external world.
How can I then understand a person that grew up like that?
Could it be that Fried Chicken isn't looking for his mother
because he is afraid? Afraid to be rejected?
What are you thinking?! How can you have pity for your hunt?
The more I know, the more I won't be able to make my move. So what am I really after?
The more I think about it, the hungrier I get.
I indeed still can't do it.
To ask her what really happened after I got drunk that day is really very weird.
I should just call her, or text her.
Zhihao.
You're looking for me? You are standing by my door, so you surely are looking for me.
It's...
No. I...want to say, that day...
That day?
Oh, I know.
That day when you lost consciousness after just drinking 2 shots and I even had to carry you home.
Did you really have to say it out loud?
Don't apologize. Anyone who gets drunk will usually be weak-minded.
When I am drunk, I am worse than you. It's fine.
No, I didn't come to apologize.
Thank you. I came to say thank you.
Thank me for what?
The children's book. You sent me extra pages.
It must be because I want to read them, so you just sent them to me.
And then, just give me the books. I don't have other else to say.
Zhihao!
Don't thank me, because I also got something precious from you.
Getting paid for one's efforts is just proper. No need to take it to heart. Bye-bye.
Precious thing?
What precious thing?
Will making a joke like that be too much?
But what I said is right too.
I indeed took a precious thing from him.
If he gets drunk again next time, how great would that be.
[Your reply is very important to me.]
She didn't reply to my email. She clearly read it already.
How come she still hasn't replied?
It's simple why she didn't reply. Isn't it clear that she doesn't want to meet him?
How is that possible? He's her child. How could she not want to see him?
Adults have their own reasons.
Once they decide to divorce, it proves that there is a problem between a married couple.
Afterwards, abandoning one's own son, not appearing nor contacting him,
there surely is a hidden story here.
But no matter what, the child is innocent.
Just getting abandoned by his mother like that...
I still want them to see each other.
Don't interfere too much. This is somebody else's matter.
Jeez, stop being so heartless, okay?
Do you know how hard it was for me to reach this point?
But at the start, didn't you only treat him as a hunt that's why you approached him? Why must you be this persistent?
Trying to change the life of a person is not an easy thing.
It will need a huge amount of effort and lead to big consequences.
I am not a child anymore.
I will not give up. I will prove it to you.
I will get going now.
The past me seemed to have never been this thirsty for anything.
I also have never tried hard to do anything.
Even though I was only able to touch him a little, I was able to feel a warm and clean energy.
That's why, I won't give up. Fried Chicken will be mine, no matter the means.
Okay, you have worked hard.
You all have worked hard.
Move the item here.
- Okay. - Okay, let me do it. - Give me a hand.
- Are you alright? - I feel a bit dizzy.
- I don't why I can't keep my spirit up. - Please pack up the things.
She finally replied.
Zhihao! Zhihao!
Good night! Why are you still awake?
How come you didn't first text me and just--
- I'm taking you somewhere on Sunday at 3 pm. - Sunday?
Aren't there a few pages left in the children's book that I haven't sent you?
I will take you to someplace and give you a surprise.
What surprise?
Anyway, I won't eat you. Just see you then. Bye-bye.
See you then!
Where exactly are we going?
Since I already came out with you, I have the right to now.
Jeez, just follow me. Stop worrying.
I...will take you to...a good place.
Hey! A good place?
Let me tell you, I definitely don't have those kinds of thoughts about you.
And I really don't know what I did to you that night.
But...
We're here. It's that place.
Isn't there a coffee shop near our house? Why must we come here?
[Musica Tapas Vino]
You know that I do not like meeting strangers.
This way.
Zhihao!
♫ Your eyes are far away, and then they're near ♫ ♫ They're dark, and then they're lit ♫
Zhihao! Zhihao!
♫ The shadow I couldn't step on shifted, ♫ ♫ and then my footprints disappeared ♫
What exactly is going on here?
Sorry for not telling you beforehand.
Last time, you told me that the author of that book is your mother.
And you talked about those things from your childhood.
You said that book might not be important to others, but it is the most precious thing for you.
Truth is, you missed your mom.
A person's most blissful moments are when they're younger, when they hear their mother's voice,
and feel her warm hands. I have been thinking of you every day.
Haven't you been waiting for this day to come?
What are you being afraid of?
♫ Don't panic ♫ ♫ Hey, yeah~ ♫
♫ The sky will brighten ♫
Miss Shiya.
Yes.
I want to talk with Zhihao privately. Is that okay?
You can. You can. You two just talk first. I'll get out now.
I'll get going now.
He doesn't look fine. Will he really be able to handle this?
Could I have been worried for nothing?
Could it be Fried Chicken just wanted to read his mother's book? And didn't really want to see her?
Time really flies so fast. In a blink of an eye, my little Zhihao has grown up.
You look like you have been living well.
You feel that I have lived well?
In your eyes, have I really lived well?
Do you know how much I suffered?
In the past, why did you leave me without saying anything?
I didn't want to abandon you, Zhihao.
I left that time just to liberate myself.
You know that your father was always busy with work.
Although I tried my best to try to understand him and conform to him,
I became lonelier, sadder, and felt more helpless the longer that I was with him.
I don't know when it started that even just seeing you was painful for me.
I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to control myself
and transfer these grudges to you.
That kind of pain gave my no choice but to leave.
Since that day, I have been living in guilt.
Whenever I thought about it, I really regretted it.
But I also knew that I couldn't undo the past anymore.
Why didn't you look for me back then?
I couldn't. I couldn't look for you.
Why?!
I thought about a lot of things. Since I already let go,
what right do I have to still be your mother?
When I came today,
I was still thinking if I should have come or not.
Afterwards, I remembered her words.
That's why, I mustered the courage to come here.
Her?
Could it be...
It's Shiya. A few days ago, we met in private.
I came today to refuse your request.
I have already deeply hurt him.
I came to ask you this favor, not to tell you to take responsibility for Zhihao's future.
You are his family. What you can give him is help and not pain.
Her words deeply moved me.
I then made the decision to see you.
Zhihao, I know that saying these words now
is already too late.
But I really...want to tell you...
that I love you every minute, every second.
I kept thinking that people don't like me.
That people around me will also leave me.
They will never like a person like me.
Even when I was being confessed at, I didn't feel anything.
Because I am not liked by anyone,
that's why, I also don't know how to love. Slowly, I became alone.
But right now, that missing portion,
seems to be slowly being filled up.
Subtitles by the Hug Me If You Can Team @ Viki
♫ When we were together, happiness came so easily ♫
♫ I held your hand so tightly in mine ♫
♫ My heart kept pounding for a long time ♫
♫ Then you started putting on that cold demeanor ♫
♫ You left my side and the distance grew between us ♫
♫ And then, I realized ♫
♫ I never let you see my sadness, ♫
♫ afraid it would break your expectations ♫
♫ But all that time you didn't understand me, ♫
♫ I was missing and waiting for you ♫
♫ I hummed the songs I wrote for you ♫
♫ By now, you may have already forgotten ♫
♫ But I'm still deeply in love with you ♫
♫ How I could have I stopped it? ♫
♫ Forgive me for feigning indifference ♫
♫ I'm not pretending I'm unaffected, or thinking too much ♫
♫ I just realized that a silent love is the deepest one ♫