That's only possible in your dreams.
It's just a dream, that.
Episode 21
I'm sorry.
Now that I think about it,
I might have thrown myself into your life.
I'm not making fun of you.
I really felt that.
Living...
is about countless, endless assumptions.
Maybe, back then,
if something like that hadn't happened...
If I had met him just a little earlier,
or just a bit later...
If I did,
how would that have changed my life?
Maybe...
life is just a collection of coincidences.
If I hadn't gone to Hokkaido,
or even if I had...
but didn't meet a man called Lee Jun Soo...
If that happened,
your life would have changed as well, Da Ae.
You could be wrapping up your relationship with Ha Dong Won by now,
and preparing to make a fresh start with Jun Soo.
I could be just heading home,
pretending to live happily with my husband,
right as he closed that chapter of his life you took part in.
But, living...
Is it really just a succession of coincidences?
If that's the case,
living itself would be too gloomy.
So, you're saying meeting Jun Soo in Hokkaido...
was destiny?
- That's not what I meant... - Then?!
It could be the opposite.
I made that choice.
Maybe it wasn't a destiny I couldn't escape from.
It might just have been my choice,
a mere coincidence I could have easily escaped from.
Family, husband and children.
You asked if it was worth throwing all that away, right?
Loving someone.
Then, without love...
Family, husband and children.
What would your relationship with them be built on?
I'm not saying what I say is the only truth.
Loving someone.
That's not a problem of being right or wrong.
Yes.
I love Jun Soo.
Family, husband and kids.
I love him enough to abandon it all.
If I lose that man,
to me...
family, husband and kids...
could lose any meaning.
Perhaps even living itself.
That's so touching.
Loving someone so much at your age.
You said...
that was only possible in dreams, right?
Then, I...
don't want to wake up from that dream until the day I die.
Thank you.
Thanks to you,
I found out once again how much Jun Soo means to me.
Should I tell you where Jun Soo is?
The game should be fair.
He'll be back.
If I wait for him.
I see we're quite conservative, Ajumma.
Ajumma?!
Then, what should I call you?
Hye Jin-sshi?!
Or since we're there, should I go with Hye Jin-i?
How is this one? This is pretty, too.
What's that sound?
Ah... we're doing interior renovation there.
We'll come another time.
Ah... wait.
Why stop? You haven't finished tearing down the place.
Let's turn all this store into wasteland, while we're at it.
So we'll close and I'll have a breather.
How can she be so shameless?
She said she loves Jun Soo, without blinking once.
She must really love him.
She said it was a coincidence she could escape from...
but chose Lee Jun Soo anyway.
What's that supposed to mean?
Hey.
What did I say?
You can't beat her with words.
Why?
'Cause she's crazy for him.
How are you going to convince someone who's head over heels?
You know?
I asked her if she wanted to know where Jun Soo is.
She said it was all right.
That if she waited, he'd be back.
There you go.
Don't you need that much faith, to call it love?
Yeah.
Keep riling me up.
Da Ae.
Just have a fresh start.
Why would you stop and wave at a bus that's leaving?
Someone with such a bright future ahead... really.
Should I?
Of course, you silly!
Okay.
After I've seen her die.
Must be some customers.
You, stop!
You have no reason to get all riled up like that.
Was there a child in the middle? Course not.
I'm coming!
Just stay there.
Please, come in.
Da Ae.
I haven't eaten a thing all day.
No matter what you say, it's no use.
I can't tell you where Jun Soo is.
I didn't come to ask you that.
I was just wondering how he was doing.
Isn't it?
He hadn't recovered yet, and left without asking the doctor.
Feels like a cat worrying about mice.
Of course it worries me.
The people after him are not to be overlooked.
It's Seong Gu's father, right?
Seong Gu's father...
We'll settle everything very soon.
How?
Records of Kang Seong Gu's autopsy will come from Japan.
When that arrives,
we can prove Jun Soo's innocence.
If you see him, just tell him not to run away.
That would actually draw suspicion.
Understood?
Uh?
Want some?
Here. How does it look?
Fresh, uh?
Wait a moment.
They're asking for more over there.
Yes! Coming. Wait a moment.
It's me, Jun Soo.
Listen to me well.
Records of Seong Gu's autopsy are coming from Japan.
He said, when that arrives, your innocence will be proven.
Still, you never know, so just stay there.
Seong Gu's father is frantically looking for you.
You never know what could happen. Got it?
Oh!
Don't call Yoon Hye Jin either.
If things go wrong, they might start trailing her.
I've used Myung Ja's phone to call.
They might be tracing my calls.
Wow! They're so fresh!
Must taste great.
Bon appetite!
Is anything wrong?
No.
Ehh... cut the crap.
Who's going to bother tapping you?
I just scared him a bit.
So he won't call that woman anymore.
Tsk... you just wasted money.
If you're that curious, just ask him.
Is there anything a mother and son can't talk about?
Can't you let me go, Seong Gu?
Life was garbage anyway!
Everything went according to your plans!
Everything turned out as you wanted!
So... leave me in peace.
Leave me alone!
Jun Soo
Did you wait long?
The translation?
- Here you go. - Ohh...
You must have been in a hurry.
"Peaceful Life"
Finishing everything in less than two weeks.
I don't catch sleep easily these days.
Dazai Osamu must be rolling in his grave, waiting for your translation.
It's not that bad.
Anyway, good job.
Ahh... right.
You know you get paid only after the book is published, right?
Should I ask for half at least?
If I have a talk with the boss...
I'll just wait.
Fine.
Anyway, thanks for this.
I'll treat you to something nice.
Woo Seok.
When we were in Tokyo,
one of your friends was bragging he entered the Police Department, right?
Oh... right.
Hikeda Naotaka.
He's high up?
By now, he should be.
Why?
There's this man who committed suicide in Hokkaido.
The Japanese police did the autopsy on him.
Ohh... must be.
If they wanted to see if it was suicide or murder.
But, why?
Your friend, he wouldn't be able to look into that, right?
Autopsy records or something?
Just the content.
Well...
That's got to be a little difficult.
I can just ask.
He was really close with me.
It's okay.
The police here asked for it already, so I'll just wait.
I'll go.
Oh... Hye Jin.
N... nevermind.
Good job.
Thanks. See you.
Hye Jin!
Be strong!
Oh!
- I told you it would happen... - Don't worry about it.
Director.
Done with it?
Yes, I did the rounds with all the agencies,
and even a few dailies.
The Internet?
Yes, it's all over the place by now.
It's a minefield ready to explode.
The stocks?
They hit the cap right as the market opened.
We sold everything, right?
Yes.
I'll go home earlier today, so keep your eyes on it.
Yes, don't worry.
Director.
Director!
Director Shin completely fell for it.
How much did he buy?
Until it hit the cap on opening, he bought over 3% of the entire shares.
What if Director Shin hits the jackpot?
He should, if we're to get to the end of this.
Director.
What did he say?
He's about to collapse.
Stocks he kept for months are hitting the cap right as he sold them.
Does he know I bought them?
He doesn't yet, obviously.
If he knew that, he'd be all over my throat by now.
They say even monkeys fall from trees sometimes,
so Ha Dong Won's career wraps up here.
Good job.
I won't forget it.
If this keeps up, I might end up with both going for my throat.
Mommy!
Na Ri, Na Rae!
Let's just go out for dinner, no need to do it yourself.
The girls asked me to make curry rice.
They're tired of Seong Suk's curry rice. Myself included.
Don't bring them here, from now on.
I don't want them to see me live this way.
Why? What's wrong with you?
Or just send the kids only.
They should get used to this.
If they are to live here.
After living in such a large house, adapting to this won't be easy.
What do you mean with that?
You said you can't give the kids up.
Thinking about it, you have a point.
You can't live without them.
I just thought I was being too cruel to you.
Since we're breaking up, let's just cut ties cleanly.
You're giving me the kids?
Yeah.
You?!
I'll support you as well.
The money to feed and clothe them, send them to school...
and have the occasional dinner out, I'll take care of it.
The rest is up to you to make.
Why are you looking at me like that? Things turned out just as you wanted to.
Daddy. Can we sleep with Mommy tonight?
Of course!
See? He lets us.
Mommy, can we go to that playground?
Sure, you can go.
Mommy, we'll go out.
What are you waiting for, Na Ri? Go play with her.
Eonni, follow me!
Come on.
You have to push up there.
You can leave earlier today.
The kids?
They're sleeping at their mother's.
And her husband?
- Mister Ha? - He'll come home!
Why would he sleep there?
Here's Seong Suk Ajumma!
Ahh... this is boring.
Roll the kimbap...
Don't.
It's nice sleeping here, right?
You don't like it?
Tell me.
You don't like it here?
Daddy is leaving.
Bye bye!
I'll come back tomorrow,
so get up early and prepare for school.
Yes!
V(ictory)!
Bye!
- Bye bye! - Bye.
Let's draw.
Eonni, join me.
Don't worry.
I'm not using the kids for what you're thinking.
When I'm ready, I'll come get them.
They'll soon be on vacation.
Try to live with them during that.
Okay.
Na Rae is still too young to understand this,
but I'm worried about Na Ri.
She rarely laughs these days.
If she can't adapt, I'll raise her.
Anyway, let's just wait and see.
See you tomorrow.
Are you sincere?
Will you really give me the kids?
Listen to her.
Are they goods to trade? To give and take.
A mother saying things like that.
Mommy.
Come draw with me.
We need crayons.
I brought them from home.
- You did? - Yeah.
Let's go.
You don't know how many times I tried to kill myself.
Every time, what saved me was...
my anger for the world I live in.
I hated it.
This damned world.
If I only could, I'd have destroyed it all.
Everything that moved and lived.
Right as that anger was touching the bottom,
I met her.
Looking at her face engulfed in sorrow,
felt like warmth was enveloping me.
Like a mother's warm embrace.
That woman's tears of sorrow...
tamed the last burning flames of anger in my heart.
So I felt the desire to live.
I wanted to live so much, it was suffocating me.
I wanted to hold someone and scream.
"I fell in love!"
Jun Soo.
It's laughable, isn't it?
I really wanted to live...
I really wanted to.
Do you want to meet your father?
Although he probably doesn't deserve that tag.
I tried to dig him out saying your mother was dying, a few times.
No matter what, he wouldn't listen to me, so I found him.
I barely found him at a prison.
I guess he was able to avoid me beating him to death.
Don't abandon my mother.
If you have nowhere to go,
you're always welcomed at home.
When I used to believe the world was full of evil,
that made me feel even more comfortable.
To me, back then, life and death shared the same meaning.
No, on the contrary, the thought of living scared me.
Whereas getting closer to death made me feel light as a bird.
Da Ae...
was the first thing I ever wanted to protect.
Because I loved her?
That wasn't it.
I wanted to escape from Seong Gu by protecting her.
I fell in love for the first time.
It's not because she was beautiful.
It's because I saw the same tears of sorrow inside the ocean of her soul.
I wanted to make her happy.
If only she could feel happy,
I could die happily.
To do that,
I should wedge that person away from me.
Away from my gloom and despair.
How's your leg?
Ohhh... wow.
Being young is nice.
You got better in a matter of days.
You were worried, right?
That I might have run away.
You're in love with someone, why would you do that?
You're lucky, young fella.
People like me live this way, unable to find any woman.
But you have two.
- Are you envious? - Oh... of course.
You've heard?
That I've asked the Japanese police for the autopsy records.
What are you trying to find?
If they'd found anything of note,
would they have released Seong Gu's body that easily?
I guess.
Then again...
If they'd found anything, it wouldn't be just you or Chairman Kang after me.
The Japanese police would.
So, is that why you did that in Hokkaido?
In case you were a murderer...
Isn't that common sense?
The right to investigate falls upon local police.
But I'm not.
If there's anything I should be blamed for,
it would be that of letting Seong Gu's hands go.
That is why I'm trying to have a look at those records.
Anyway, see you around.
Be careful.
What are you looking for?
For instance,
if Seong Gu fell off by accident,
he must have been trying to hold your hands desperately. Right?
Right.
Then, there would be bruises on your wrist or hands.
Well, of course by now they have vanished.
But...
there's a possibility traces of your skin might be left...
under Seong Gu's fingernails.
If he really tried to hold onto you that hard...
Bingo.
But, if you were holding his hands,
then those traces would be nowhere to be found.
But it could just be the opposite.
How?
If I were holding Seong Gu's hands or wrists before he fell.
Since I tried my best not to let him go,
traces of his skin would be under my fingernails. Right?
Isn't it?
That's quite true as well.
See?
No matter how hard you try,
you will never find anything proving I didn't kill him.
I know you're trying to help me.
But just forget about it.
You don't need to waste time on me.
Anyway... well...
When the records arrive,
we'll find out something.
Maybe even something you and I don't know.
Wait for it, then.
I'll be waiting quietly.
Don't laugh.
I'll start liking you, then.
Hello?
It's me.
I'll be late at work. Can you take care of the kids?
What?
Speak louder, I can't hear you.
I'm working today, so I'll come home late.
So?
You're coming home late, so I shouldn't send you the kids?
I'm sorry.
Nice excuse.
You're tired of them, too?
They must be in the way when that friend of yours comes around.
Why aren't you answering me?
Hye Jin, what are you waiting for? We have no time.
Hello?
Don't hang up and listen.
Let's go.
What's so important you need to rush?
When you've divorced, you and that young guy...
Hye Jin! Where are you going?
I'll go out a minute.
Why the hell did you ask to meet?
Did I say anything wrong?
Just...
say that you're crazy over that fella and had an affair.
Don't always bring up the kids.
Yeah... I said I'll give you the kids as you wanted.
What are all these damned excuses?!
Can't you let me go?
Why should I?
If I were you, I'd feel so sorry I would.
Why should I?!
What's going to change, even if you keep oppressing me like this?
Did my having an affair become such an embarrassing issue?
No matter how angry you were, couldn't you give me a chance?
If then I kept cheating on you, I would have accepted anything.
But you leave home without saying a thing,
and end up doing that?
Go around and ask! If that's normal.
Why are you laughing?
You know?
You're still treating me like an object.
What did you say?
I said, you're not treating me like a human being.
You're angry about me having an affair, right?
As the head of the family, that object you possessed should...
quietly stay at home, but suddenly it vanished without your consent.
So you're angry, embarrassed, and don't know how to react.
Look at me.
I've lived with you for over a decade.
Whether we loved each other or not,
we lived under the same roof for over ten years!
All those years...
I don't want to end them with resentment.
Because I gained two kids who mean more than life to me.
So, just let me go.
I didn't have an affair to avenge what you did.
Nor did I do it to break up with you.
I wanted to find myself.
And what's so important about it?
Finding yourself?!
How many people live for themselves alone in this world?!
They just live!
I can't live that way!
Come here!
How was it with your mother?
It was nice.
Why didn't you call me?
I would have driven you back.
Your leg?
Did it get better?
Actually, I was so curious I planned to come visit you.
But you were staying with your mother after a long time, so I stopped.
Right.
I met Yoon Hye Jin, and gave her phone and bag back.
She didn't call you?
She did.
Looking at the outcoming calls, you were all over it.
She must have nobody to call other than you.
I'll go.
You're leaving already?
Thank you for bringing me there without complaints.
And for letting you come back without any complaints either?
I didn't want to tell you this...
Ha Dong Won said he has no intention of divorcing.
Just so you know.
Don't get hurt for nothing.
What?
Find someone nice.
If I do?
Call me. I'll buy you a drink.
That's nice to hear.
Do you plan to take this to the end?
What?
With Yoon Hye Jin.
You can see the end already.
She can't leave her husband.
Don't worry about others, and find someone nice yourself.
What if Ha Dong Won doesn't let her go?
Then, what are you going to do?
No need to know!
You're cute when you do that.
Stop it.
Da Ae.
Look at me.
Just say it.
It's not what I want to hear.
What?
Find someone nice.
Don't worry.
I will.
It doesn't suit you.
Hating others, things like that.
If I didn't, I'd probably go crazy.
Why are you laughing?
The world is much seamier than you think.
The kind of anger and hatred you feel is nothing.
Don't ruin yourself over that.
Be yourself.
And what's "being myself"?
Just living?
When was the happiest moment in your life?
The happiest moment?
It was then, I guess.
If you're wondering when,
that'd be when I promised myself I'd break up with Ha Dong Won,
and bought a ticket for Paris.
It was really nice, now that I think about it.
Selling the store, shopping all I wanted in Paris,
then, back home, confessing my love for you.
Then, start from there.
Sell the store, buy a ticket for Paris and leave.
Then, when you're back,
have a fresh start.
You never know.
You could meet someone in Paris or Milano.
Like you?
Like when you met Yoon Hye Jin in Hokkaido?
Life...
I feel like laughing myself, saying this.
Life can bring you surprises you can never predict.
It could be money.
Fame.
Or even love.
Start from where you made a wrong turn.
And take the right path, this time.
See you again. If we get the chance.
Is this your way of bidding farewell?
Doesn't that mean we'll never meet again?
I haven't heard any of that, then.
I don't want to talk with you,
so get out of here.
My apologies.
Do apologies solve this?
How can you leave customers and run away like that?!
You could at least have called me.
What's wrong with you?
Are you getting scolded by your teacher at school, now?
No need to look down like that.
What's wrong with me?! Where the hell is my schedule?
You know how hard it is to make a living, Hye Jin?
You can talk all you want.
Know how hard it is for a woman...
to step out of her husband's shadow and make a living on her own?
This company might look insignificant to your eyes,
but know how many people would kill to work here?!
Don't be so impudent.
Living is always hard for a woman, no matter what you do.
Attach divorce to that,
and see how the world can turn into hell instantly.
Call me in a week.
If I calm down about this, I'll think about it.
Actually...
Don't make any excuse.
Who said I was going to listen to that?
I don't care what happened. Leaving customers alone like that...
is unacceptable.
Go.
Don't pretend with me like that.
Use those gestures for men who're head over heels for you.
Understood?
What?!
I got it.
You can't even take care of yourself,
how the hell are you supposed to raise kids on your own?
What did he say?
To just live.
What's that supposed to mean?
Don't know.
So I'm thinking about it.
What "just living" means.
Then again... what you've done so far was just living.
So, doesn't he mean to keep on doing that?
Don't get stressed, just date or get married.
I'll never see him again.
He looked at me as if he could trap me inside his eyes.
Listen to that.
He looked at me like that.
"I will never see you again."
He's bad.
Right as he's bidding farewell, "just live"?
He just said not to look back.
At the past.
Really?
That sounds okay.
What's the use of looking back?
It's not like you can go back and fix things.
Means we can't go back.
To fix what's wrong.
Should I buy a ticket for Paris?
Is anyone here?
Ahhh... hot.
How did you come in, Jun Soo?
It's so hot it's killing me, that's all you're asking?
You surprised me.
I'm sure I locked the door.
Is there anything to steal, to lock your door like that?
Actually,
just in case, I made another key.
When?
Listen to that.
What are you doing there?
I'm preparing you a feast.
Just go change.
I'll make you tasty curry rice.
Where have you been?
You could have called, and told me you were doing okay.
Were you worried?
Know how scared I was?
I thought I'd never see you again.
What...
What did I do to deserve this?!
Ohh my...
He's already desperate.
Why didn't you bring her the kids?
Do as I said.
If you want to stop her, that's the only way.
There's a limit...
Would she cheat on you right under her children's noses?
Ohhh... just stop drinking.
You'll just hurt yourself.
You need to take care of yourself.
Would going through all that solve anything?
In these cases, you should worry about health first.
Know... know why?
What?
I...
have kept misunderstanding her.
I told you, she's always been like that.
How many chances to cheat did she have?
It's just that I never told you that.
But Hye Jin, in Tokyo...
I thought of breaking up,
but I couldn't take it anymore.
I couldn't survive!
Without that person.
You know?
Deep down, I must have really loved her.
Of course, I spent years living with her.
So I just couldn't feel it.
But deep down, somewhere in here,
I was deeply in love with Yoon Hye Jin, that's what.
Ehhh... Dong Won.
You're all drunk.
Here, here.
Let's go to sleep.
Here.
No matter how hard I try,
I'll never find someone like her.
Who would raise our kids, if it's not her?
See, Hye Jin?!
Your husband is so crazy about you...
Just forget it.
Is Hye Jin the only woman out there?
Just forget her.
Dong Won.
You're not eating?
It's good.
What?
It was a lie, right?
What?
That you did it all because of revenge.
And she remembers that...
Forget it. I just said that in anger.
What did I do wrong?
Who said you did?
You said it was something you said in anger.
You felt like another person, that day.
I was scared.
Here you go again.
I don't like you looking at me like that.
I'm really hungry right now.
Can't we talk after I'm done with this?
Okay?
You want to abandon your husband and kids because of me.
You're too big a burden for me!
Just jump off.
You have nowhere to run!
Are you going to take this to the end with me?
You started the fight.
Forgotten already?
Since I was there, I bought you tickets for Paris.
Yes, we'll leave together.
And live together in Paris.
You can't even guess?
Jun Soo is trying to kill himself.
It was my fault.
Na Ri, Na Rae and I need you.
It's about time to end it all.
Didn't we have enough fun already?
You can insult me all you want.
Since I don't believe a word you're saying.