Da Ae!
Grab my hand!
Grab it!
Grab my hands, Da Ae!
What are you doing? I said grab my hands!
Just let them go.
I have no desire to go on living!
Did you kill Seong Gu this way, too?
Right?!
Seong Gu died this way!
Episode 19
Awww... I fell asleep.
You must have been tired.
That's life for you.
Oh... this is bad.
I need to pass by the office before I head for the airport.
Won't you be late?
Ah... it's okay. Well...
I came here under the boss's orders, who would complain?
But, what do we do with you?
Now you can't even bank on this trivial job.
I have enough to last me a few months.
I can't even tell you to just go back home.
Ahh... you're right! Just endure it.
If you give up now, your husband will only get worse.
Should I look with other travel agencies?
I'll take care of it.
Tell him to pay you alimony! Why give up on that?
I guess, if you start fighting over money, you'll start looking like him.
I'm going.
Thank you for everything.
Just stay here, no need to see me out.
I really have no excuses, so even seeing you makes me feel sorry.
I'll see you around.
See you...
- Come again. - Yes.
- How much is this? - 1,000 won.
Give me this one. I'll put it inside here.
Thank you. Have a nice day.
What can I help you with?
- How much is the mackerel? - The mackerel?
It's 2,000 won each.
- Is it fresh? - Of course!
Have a look. It's so fresh!
- Give me two. - Ah... yes!
I'm going to do a stew. - Ah, really?
I'm sorry.
I suddenly felt helpless.
About my future.
I just thought living before then was the simplest thing.
I suddenly got scared.
I thought if anything bad or difficult to handle happened to me,
just like tripping on a stone and getting up, I would cope with it.
But life is not that simple.
It's like a tattoo, piercing you here and there,
and never leaving your skin.
Why did I live like that?
Open your eyes.
Will you look at me in the eyes?
If you just...
could grab my hands a little more,
I could have done it.
My life could have started from scratch.
Strip off the vestiges of vanity...
and start a new life as the real me.
You can do that, whenever you want to.
How?
With time...
you'll meet someone else.
You'll fall in love.
You could eventually break up,
but you'll start loving again.
Everything is possible for you.
I told you I can't!
You're still dominating my thoughts,
how am I supposed to start a new life?!
If you escape from my heart and soul, Jun Soo,
only an empty shell of my own self will remain.
Da Ae.
Listen to me.
You did nothing wrong.
There're people like Ha Dong Won all around.
If that kind of man sticks his hands out, nobody will refuse him.
You're the same.
I know someone who could have stepped away...
from all the squandering Seong Gu did.
I told you not to talk about me. I'm talking about you now.
How is that any different?!
Why can't you start a new life?
It's a lie!
You fell in love with someone!
Yeah.
Kill me instead.
Since I will never give up on you.
It's not about me loving someone.
It's not about me loving someone, and thus possessing her.
It's about waiting until her hands are looking for me.
Listen to me.
Ever since I was little,
I've never been loved by anybody.
Because I couldn't possess anyone.
I blamed everything on this world around me.
Should I really open myself...
and show you how big the vortex of anger...
burning my heart is?
That burning angst scary enough to burn the entire world...
is tearing my heart apart deep inside!
That's why we're different.
You don't know what angst is.
So the one responsible for taming the fire is that woman?
So don't bring her into this!
Listen!
That is the first person who ever took my hands when I needed it!
She made me want to live in this world again!
Stop oppressing her.
Unless you want to see me turn crazy on you.
Jun Soo?
Hello?
Pardon me, am I speaking to Yoon Hye Jin?
I was wondering if we could meet and have a talk.
Who am I speaking to?
I have this habit...
I like it sweet.
I really shouldn't.
So what you're saying...
is that you met Lee Jun Soo by chance, in Hokkaido.
Yes.
Sorry for asking, but...
you spent a few days together after that, right?
Yes.
Ah... just... take it easy.
I'm not here to investigate or anything.
It's just that the father of the late Kang Seong Gu...
I know.
Lee Jun Soo talked about me?
I knew he was constantly followed by someone.
Ahh.
That's how you learned that.
Again, pardon me, but how much do you know about Lee Jun Soo?
I know his friend fell off a cliff and died in Otaru.
So he told me he went there looking for his body.
Lee Jun Soo told you that?
If he hadn't, how would I know?
Are you saying he told you that in Hokkaido?
Yes.
I heard Kang Seong Gu's body was found.
Yes.
So, wasn't Lee Jun Soo's innocence proven as well?
That's right. Something like that.
But that's a little...
Pardon me, but...
Yes?
You said you first met him at the airport in Hokkaido, right?
Yes.
So you've never met before then.
We didn't.
That's what I can't quite understand.
How that type of relationship could build...
just out of you two meeting for the first time in Hokkaido.
Common sense says something like that...
is really hard to believe.
- And what's more, you... - Do you want me to explain that?
If it's of any help in proving Jun Soo's innocence,
I will tell you.
Ahh... no. Of course it could happen.
Between man and woman, anything...
So, you must have been trying to find things about me, too.
I didn't.
Your husband asked me to...
Well, because of this and that, it strangely all...
ended up pieced together, you know?
So, there's nothing else I can do for you.
Are you going to leave?
Yes.
Honestly, I'm on nobody's side.
But, the more I investigate Lee Jun Soo...
How should I put it? I've taken a liking to him.
I can understand a lot of what he went through.
But so many clues are emerging, moving me not to trust him at all.
My apologies, I don't have anything else to add.
Wait a moment.
Do you still meet him frequently?
I mean, just...
If you feel bad about it, don't answer.
Yes.
That'll be 12,000 won.
Ah... right, I'll pay for the coffee!
I'll...
Thank you. Have a nice day.
Where are we?
Home.
Mine?
So that's where I live.
Up until now,
I never thought of it as going back home.
Sorry.
I shouldn't have reacted like that.
It's obvious you would.
I was tingling the woman you loved more than your life.
Da Ae.
It's the truth.
I was just envious.
Yeah.
Just like you said,
I might just meet someone.
We'll either fall in love,
or start disliking each other and break up.
And doing that, I'll gradually give it up.
That obsession about a "special" life.
Go in.
I said, go.
I'll wait.
I'll still wait.
What did you say?
Da Ae!
Why did Jun Soo...
What is wrong with you two?!
What is...
Here.
O, my sad love, you unchanging...
decaying love
The love for you which once bloomed...
is finally, slowly, dying inside me
My confessions to you dig an abyss inside my heart
My dreams about you bring forth tears of regret
The wretched flowers I send you, a dozen at a time...
Keep blossoming and withering in a vicious circle
I didn't just hope for happiness alone, why?
My desire grows stronger, vanquishing our love
I'll write "please" in my heart to keep you next to me
Sending the words "I'm sorry" far away, directed at you
The love for you which once bloomed...
is finally, slowly dying inside me
Soothing their sorrow in my warm embrace of tears
Those white flowers are breaking, withering into dust
Knowing it's love cast away, and not admitting it
Not giving up, spending the days in tears
Screaming at you a thousand times, I still can't reach your heart
Crying ten thousand times, you still don't turn back
Screaming thousands of times, thousands of times
Crying ten thousand times, ten thousand times
The love for you which once bloomed...
is finally, slowly dying inside me
It's dying
Why did you ask to meet here?
Since I'll be brief.
Really?
I'm busy, so start talking.
It takes a few months to divorce, these days.
Even if one settles, there's some kind of law...
that forces you to wait a few months.
You should have gotten a lawyer.
I don't like rumors.
There's nothing left to ruin with rumors.
If you say so.
Let's hear your conditions.
Just give me the kids.
I told you I wouldn't.
Should we take this to the court?
And whose side is the court on?
We'll see about that.
Then, let's go.
Honey.
"Honey"?!
You can't raise them anyway.
Then, you?
Think you can raise them without a penny?
I'll do everything to raise them.
Prove it to me, then they'll be yours.
Prove what?
Prove to me how you'll raise them.
Then, give me alimony!
So we finally see your true colors.
Alimony?
Director Shin is buying like a madman.
How many shares do we have?
A few hundred thousand per stock.
Should I sell them tomorrow?
Wait. Just pretend to buy.
But still, Director.
What if they really go up?
Then we'll be the ones going belly up.
You have the magic touch anyway.
Keep them in check. Don't let them find out.
Ohh... don't worry.
I've got them trapped.
Like so.
Fighting!
Wija-ryo (alimony)?!
Euija (chair)? [they sound similar]
You don't know what you're getting into.
Manager.
Oh, thanks.
Thank you.
So, you'll try at some other travel agency?
Yes.
Okay. I'll look into it.
Thank you.
May I...
give you a little word of advice?
Ahh... usually I'm not really good at this.
Advices are like that, you know?
They're not much help, and it feels like you're pretending to care.
What's wrong with it?
I'm a little grumpy to start with,
so the moment I started losing affection for my husband,
the same happened for the kids.
But you're different.
Although you don't love your husband anymore,
you still love your children, right?
You like someone, right?
Right?
Well...
You don't love him enough to give up your kids, don't you?
Think about it. How much you really like him.
I'm not divorcing just because I like someone.
Sure, I know.
Why, was it because you had an affair?!
Ohhh... you must really like him,
since you're not answering me straight off the bat.
I just never compared them like that.
Ah ah! Really!
How old are you, to still live inside a dream?
That's my advice.
Divorce? Well, if you want to, do it!
But, between that man you like and your kids,
you'll have to choose one and give up the other.
Seriously, who would give his kids up,
when his ex-wife is living with someone else?
Go with the law, and you'll lose there as well.
And if I live alone?
Well, then, things are different.
Sure! Live alone, and stake your life to raise them,
just like some woman from the Joseon dynasty.
Pass! Pass!
Pass, pass, pass!
I had lost my cell phone, but then I found it this morning.
It fell below the car seats.
You didn't call me, right?
There weren't any missed calls on display.
Are you angry?
Did you go far?
No, I was home.
I took some pills because I had fever,
then I guess I just fell asleep after I lay down.
It's true.
What are you doing?
I wanted to have dinner together yesterday, so I went to the market.
What did you buy?
Mackerel.
I wanted to season it well.
Must taste great.
After waiting, I just ate it alone. And today...
You ate it all, without leaving a thing?
Actually I just threw it away.
I wanted to eat it after waiting so much, but something was choking me a little.
Wait there.
I have another mackerel to cook.
You need to spread radish leaves under to make it good.
I see we have pretty traditional taste?!
You don't even thank me?
Thank you.
Bok Sun.
Didn't I tell you already? Like I have time to waste.
Oh! You're here!
You said you were coming earlier,
so I was preparing dinner.
Ajumma? Seonsaengnim* is back. (*deferential address)
The kids?
Ahh... they must be studying in their room.
Na Ri, Na Rae. Daddy is back!
Your father is back, you don't even greet him?
Daddy, when are you going to fetch Bok Sun?
- Oh... - Later.
Come down and let's have dinner.
Just ignore them.
They're just acting like that because they miss their mother.
Have a shower, then.
Aren't you listening to me?
If I ask something, you need to answer!
Why are you looking at me like that?
I just look like this, what am I supposed to do?
Ahh... really. This ajumma...
And, oh.
Why didn't you prepare what I bought? It's so good.
Mr. Ha likes that a lot. Hurry up and cook it.
Ahh... hurry up and get on it!
How much do you like me?
What?
Answer me.
How can you convey that with words?
You have until now.
As if you penetrated my thoughts,
you chose all the things I most wanted to hear, it seems.
- Actually, yesterday... - I'm not complaining about your lies.
Deceiving, then feeling sorry, and just being happy about deceiving someone...
are two different things.
A man named Park Byung Shik came looking for you, right?
Whoever came...
What did he ask you?
Why do you keep talking about other people?
We're talking about me and you now.
It's because I didn't want to involve you in this.
"This" what?
He must have kept asking you questions, right?
About what happened in Hokkaido with me.
If he asked that, all I needed was telling the truth.
I can say that with a clear conscience.
I felt like dying so I went to Hokkaido,
and there...
I met a young man by accident, and fell in love.
Whoever that man was,
even if he thought you murdered someone,
I wouldn't care.
I can tell him that.
But why do you need to lie because of that?
This could happen, right?
Are you doing all this because of a single lie?
You shouldn't lie even once.
You could have lied to me all you wanted in Hokkaido.
Since I had no plans to fall in love forever with that Lee Jun Soo.
But now things are different.
Nothing is different.
Is really the meeting between two people destiny?
They could have just met.
What I'm saying...
Don't ever say you'll throw everything away for me.
I don't want to hear that.
Look at me.
Look straight in my eyes and say that again.
Since we "just" met,
we could also "just" break up?
Would anything last forever in life?
Why wouldn't it?!
It was because I thought it would...
that I even thought of giving up my kids.
Did I go mad?
What did I just say?
Me, giving up on my kids? Leaving them alone without me?
I'm going.
You're not opening?
Ajumma, thanks for today.
Na Ri, Na Rae, bye!
Bye!
Have a good evening, I'll be leaving.
Yes, see you tomorrow.
Na Ri, Na Rae, come have some fruits.
- I'm okay. - Me, too. I'm full.
Did she really ask for alimony, Hye Jin?
Oh oh oh! Give me a break.
How about sending her the kids?
She's just talking!
How would she raise and feed the kids?
It's nonsense.
The kids, you know?
They started frowning the moment they saw where she lives.
What could they know? They'd just fuss all day.
You don't know her personality, Seong Suk.
Know how many years I lived with her?
She's absent-minded and lazy.
Why?
Would an absent-minded and lazy woman leave home like that?
You're underestimating her.
That's why she endured my affair for three years without a word.
If she gave me any hint she knew, I could have just wrapped it up.
Have you seen her? She just exploded one day, saying she wanted to die.
And then left home, just like that.
Hearing you say that, I think you're right.
She's a tough one, all right.
For the time being,
I'll just let her do as she pleases.
Let her do all she wants, until she gets tired and regrets it.
So you have no intention of divorcing, right?
Even if I wanted, now we can't.
Ahh... why?
If we divorce now, what becomes of me?
I don't know either.
Why I keep obsessing over someone who doesn't like me.
Ehh... that damned affection.
How much does he mean to my life?
The kids...
No, just like some math problem,
can you divide life between this and that?
If life could be divided into numbers like that...
Then...
that would mean there's also a limit to human passion and desire.
Then, I wouldn't be able to bear it.
I could, any minute...
collapse, lifeless.
What's the occasion, at this hour?
Ahh... haven't had dinner yet.
I was so hungry I was about to fix me something.
Have a seat.
You met Yoon Hye Jin, right?
Yeah, I was curious about a few things.
Didn't I tell you everything you needed to know?
I said, have a seat.
You sent this one, right?
I got it verified, and it's similar to Seong Gu's handwriting. But...
I wrote it.
Why?
Ahh... to make them believe Seong Gu committed suicide?
I told you.
I couldn't prove Seong Gu died because of an accident.
I want to believe that myself.
So that's why I've been trying to help you.
But Chairman Kang has other ideas.
These postcards are having an adverse effect, on the contrary.
You think the same, right?
You're suspecting me.
Because of a mistake I made, someone was falsely sentenced.
The evidence was perfect.
No... I believed it was, but the culprit was someone else.
So you're paying the price now.
And helping support his family.
I'm just afraid I might make the same mistake.
So although I suspect you might have killed Seong Gu,
I want to believe you're innocent.
Stop forcing me into a corner.
I don't know how I might react myself.
Think killing a retired detective like me would solve anything?
I could just go crazy, you never know.
There's a single rope left which ties me to life.
If that snaps or is cut...
Yes.
I'd probably go crazy.
Was that what happened with Seong Gu?
That's a different story.
Different? How?
If I'd cut that rope, it would have been because I wanted to live.
Never meet Yoon Hye Jin again.
I might commit murder for real, this time.
Want to save that woman?
Was it Hong Da Ae or something?
You have one week.
Wrap up everything and leave.
US, Japan or wherever.
We won't fuss over details.
Hye Jin
The number you have dialed is not in service...
Awww... I'm sleepy.
Who is it, at this hour?
Who is it?
Who's that?
Tell me who....
Jun Soo!
Da Ae!
Come here quick, Da Ae!
What is this...
Now they even stab you!
Give me the medication.
Oh my... what now?
Shouldn't we go to the hospital?
We should at least treat the wound first.
Don't move, Jun Soo.
We don't need to go.
Ahh... look at all that blood there!
Eonni! Go out a moment!
Lie down, Jun Soo.
It's too scary.
Hey! Go... quick... go to the hospital!
Stay down.
The wound doesn't seem too deep, thankfully.
You just need to stop the bleeding.
Just bandage it.
I said lie down!
Where do you plan to go in this state?!
Where are you going?
If you were going to leave, why did you come to me?
Da Ae.
Leave the store to Myung Ja for the time being.
Go somewhere else.
Why?
Don't ask me why.
Until I call you, just stay somewhere else.
I need to know the reason.
They might harm you.
Who?
I'm asking who would harm me!
Don't ask that.
Then, how about you?
Doesn't that mean you'll be in much worse danger?
I'm okay.
I caused all this,
so I'll have to take care of it by myself.
No. Let's go together.
Just a few days.
While I take care of this.
I said I don't want to!
I'll stay with you even if they kill me.
You can't go. I won't allow you to leave.
You're going to her, right?
If I'm in danger, then she'll be even worse off!
So you're telling me to run, and you'll go protect her.
When I die...
I'll come to you.
What?
Never come again!
Who said I want to see you dead?!
Main Translator & Timer: MisterX
Timing QC: Victory
Why don't you listen to me?
I said stop trying to dig into my past!
I don't want to lose you, that's why!
I don't want to lose you, Jun Soo.
Even if I have to throw everything else away...
If I ever loved her?
You mean the wife of the man who ruined my love's life?
Now that I think about it,
I didn't marry you out of love, either.
Leave Yoon Hye Jin alone.
You know, that saying about cats and wives...
I said I'll get her back!
You said you'll give up the kids, right?
You can't live together anyway, just get it over with.
I couldn't grab him.
No matter how hard I tried.
I'll wrap up things at the store, and leave.
I still trust my feelings.