When I was young,
I've always wondered why you hated me so much.
Why you hated me.
I was sad every day.
If it were me, I would've done the same thing.
Because I'm the daughter that killed her mom.
Gae In, what are you talking about?
Gae In!
Who are you?
I should've greeted you sooner.
I'm Jeon Jin Ho.
Please leave.
Gae In, are you alright?
I remember everything.
It was sunny that day.
I was looking at the sky, then at Mom.
I couldn't see her face.
Mom. Mom.
I only wanted to call to Mom.
I wanted her to play with me, to make her look at me.
But, she didn't respond.
Mom.
I...
No. No, it wasn't like that.
Gae In, that was just a bad dream!
I remember everything.
That time, Mom smiled at me.
Where did this picture come from?
You opened that room?!
Yes.
Why? What right did you have to go in there?!
Get out. Get out of my house right now.
Get out!
[Episode 15 - I want to forget you]
Mom.
It was all because of me.
My mom...
She wanted to save me.
Gae In.
I finally understand why Dad hated me so much.
If it were me, I would hate myself too.
If it were me, I wouldn't want to see my daughter either.
- Tae Hoon. - Yes?
Reorganize these,
then send them out for printing.
How old are these papers?
These are the results of Jin Ho's rushed work in Sanggojae.
He couldn't find any other paper.
What is it?
You don't need to worry about that.
It's the "Spade Ace Hidden Card" that can save us all.
"Spade Ace"? What's that?
Your job is to print them,
not finding out what they are. Understand?
Tell me! I'm also an employee of this company. You never tell me anything.
It's because we can't tell you these kinds of things, got it?
- No. Tell me! Just tell me! - I can't let you know!
- Tell me! - Don't ask me what it is.
- Tell me! - I said don't ask me what it is!
Are you being rebellious and going against me?!
No.
Then do what you're told.
Hello. I am No Sang Jun from Architecture Firm M.
Oh yes. Hello, Director.
What? 200 billion?!
He told us to get together 200 billion for him, no matter what.
If we don't do it within the month,
it's likely that we'll meet in court.
I'm sorry, Jin Ho.
This is the only idea I can think of.
This is our company's blueprint for the Dam Art Gallery.
I hope that you can take a look.
I know that this goes against the rules,
but could you please give us your opinion on this
so that we can make the necessary adjustments?
Did Director Jeon tell you to come?
Yes, of course.
Jin Ho... Wait, no, no. Director Jeon said
that you'd be willing to help us.
Well, then I'll leave it to you.
Your name is No Sang Jun?
Yes.
The Director Jeon I know wouldn't do something that goes against the rules, like this.
That's one of his characteristics.
Or, maybe I'm mistaken?
No. Actually...
Please take it with you.
Actually, our company is in a very difficult situation right now.
Director Jeon isn't one to ask for such things,
but I came to find you urgently.
I'm begging you.
Go back.
Although I don't know what I should say,
let me tell you this.
I will always be by your side.
Even though it might not necessary make you feel better.
No, you being by my side
is the biggest comfort.
Although I'm not as old-fashioned as to misunderstand the youth of today,
but my daughter living with a man before getting married...
I rented the room to Jin Ho.
Rent?
Let's talk later. Go get some rest first.
That Jeon Jin Ho did things he was not supposed to do.
I closed off the basement. You can forget about it.
The things that already happened... It will not disappear.
Gae In.
Good night.
I really want to thank you for being a judge this time.
We really don't know how to repay you.
Dam project is fated with me.
Although I've agreed to be a judge...
How do I say this? I don't know how to be of help to you.
Please sit.
Are you going for the Dam Art Gallery project?
Yeah.
Jin Ho. Wait.
Your blueprint...
I gave it to Director Choi to look over.
What blueprint?
The design for Dam Art Gallery.
But that's not complete yet.
Yeah, but I wanted him to give us some advice,
so I gave it to him to look over first.
What are you talking about?
You know, that blueprint that was in this black tube over here.
I gave it to him to look over.
You gave him the blueprint from the tube?
I know you don't like it,
but if we give it to him to look over,
he'll be more considerate towards us!
I didn't draw that!
Then, who drew it?
Professor Park.
Gae In's father.
Why would Professor Park have that blueprint?
Where are you going?
Where else? I'm going to get it back.
Hyung, why did you make this decision by yourself?!
Jin Ho.
Where is Director Choi right now?
Before judging begins,
I have a set of very interesting blueprints.
Can you take a look at them?
Yes.
Come in, quickly.
Gae In.
Why are you here?
Come in.
Yes.
She's in charge of the children's play room.
Please have a seat.
Yes.
Oh, is that so?
When I heard that you were coming,
I told her to come here so the three of us could have a meal together.
To see your daughter working at the gallery...
Did it scare you?
She's lacking in many places,
so I hope she's not creating trouble for you.
Not at all. Miss Park Gae In is very outstanding.
I'm glad I discovered her talent so early on.
I'm very thankful to you for saying that.
But...
May I ask who designed this?
Architecture Firm M's Director Jeon Jin Ho.
I don't know if you know that
Miss Park Gae In and Director Jeon Jin Ho are dating.
Director Jeon is a very capable man.
Director Jeon has arrived.
Are these blueprints yours?
That...
I'm asking you whether they are yours or not!
I'm sorry.
Fath...
These were my discontinued blueprints for Dam Art Gallery from 30 years ago.
Did you enter my house just to steal them?
Although I didn't steal them,
I can clearly understand your present feelings.
What is that supposed to mean?
What blueprints did you steal, Jin Ho?
I think there's been some misunderstanding here.
Jin Ho, what are you saying?
You... really are amazing.
Did you come to our house because of these?!
You used all the time you could in my house just to look for these blueprints,
and in the end played with my daughter's heart. Did you think it was fun?!
No. My feelings towards Gae In are not lies.
How do you expect me to believe a person who stole my blueprints?
You underhanded jerk.
Father.
Don't call me "Father"!
Please hear my explanation.
You should listen to what Jin Ho has to say.
I'm sure there are some misunderstandings.
Why are you still like this?
Not knowing whether you were tricked,
and naively believed him.
This guy used you to get this project.
No. It can't be.
Right, Jin Ho?
This project was originally a project that was handed to me.
After he knew, he came to Sanggojae to steal my blueprints.
I want to see how you'd talk your way out of this one.
Yes.
What you said is true.
Originally, I did have that idea when I first moved into Sanggojae.
After I heard that the concept for Dam Art Gallery is to be based on Sanggojae,
I went to your house in hopes of finding something.
What... What are you talking about?
However... after I started liking Gae In, I gave up all of those ideas.
That's because you thought about the benefits of being my son-in-law, right?
You still think this jerk is right?!
Did you really...
move into Sanggojae because of the Dam project?
I'm sorry.
- I wanted to tell you... - When?
After you get the confirmation that you got the project?
Or after you got my father's blueprints?
Gae In. That's not it.
How could you...
How could you have treated me this way?
Then,
from the beginning,
you...
only became close to me in order to use me?
Jin Ho.
Jin Ho!
Did you find the blueprints?
You didn't find them no matter where you looked?
It's all over.
What's all over?
Professor Park came.
He was very angry after knowing that Gae In was used in order to get the blueprints.
B-but that wasn't the truth.
I mistook those blueprints as Jin Ho's when I gave it to Director Choi.
Jin Ho,
I'll tell Professor Park and Director Choi the truth.
That the company was in critical condition and this was the only thing we could do,
but we've already started using other ideas to design.
Forget it.
How can we just forget it?
If we finish like this, both you and the company are ruined!
Wait.
Let's go to Director Choi and explain to him first, okay?
I said, forget it!
It was my fault.
From having an ulterior motive in entering Sanggojae,
to the current situation.
Why did you want to meet me?
Congratulations.
What's there to celebrate?
Things have changed in your favor.
What?
The people who worked with Jin Ho accidently gave Professor Park's blueprints
to Director Choi and said that those were their designs.
So it became that Jin Ho stole Professor Park's designs.
Right now, Director Choi would lose all of his trust in Jin Ho.
And judging from Professor Park's reactions, he might be completely buried.
Jeon Jin Ho, that crazy bastard.
Call someone to have all of these things moved.
If you won't call, I will.
I'll call.
If I don't even receive love from you,
then I won't receive it from anybody else.
[House Owner]
You're not going to pick up?
What else do I have to say?
Why wouldn't you have anything to say?
You moved into Sanggojae because of me.
You lied that you were gay because of me.
It doesn't matter what you say, Hyung.
This was all my fault.
Explaining everything won't help now.
Then, why aren't you picking up?
You're taking responsibilities for things that you didn't even do.
How did you and Gae In get to this point?
If you guys break up,
how do you expect me to face you after this?
Jin Ho.
Let's go plead with them, okay?
You don't need to say anything. I'll confess it all, okay?
You can't just end it like this with Gae In.
Even if you break up, you still need to clear the misunderstanding, Jin Ho.
If you break up with Gae In like this,
what would Gae In become in her father's eyes?
Is anyone here?
Professor Park! I've only seen you in pictures.
It's truly a pleasure to meet you in real life.
Sorry, but who are you?
Oh yes. I've spoken to you through the phone before.
I'm Han Yoon Sub from Mirae Construction.
Ah, yes.
What's the matter?
What are you doing, fool? Hurry up and come here to greet your father-in-law.
It's my first time meeting you. I'm Han Chang Ryul.
He's my son.
I heard that Jin Ho stole Professor Park's blueprints.
Underhanded jerk.
I should not have told him to be closer with you.
Chang Ryul, you knew?
Why Jin Ho came to Sanggojae.
In the end, you found out anyway.
I was afraid that you would get hurt,
so I hoped that you wouldn't find out.
Gae In, you're not still attached to him after going through all this, are you?
That jerk
pretended to be gay so that he could live at your house,
and steal Professor Park's blueprints.
Aren't you and your father the same?
You wanted to start over with me because of the Dam project.
Your father came all the way down here for the same purpose, right?
Gae In.
I'm not like that.
Everyone is the same.
I'm sure you've had quite a shock,
with so many problems to deal with.
Jin Ho could actually do these kinds of things?
Really.
Jin Ho originally had some oppositions towards our family.
So, after he knew that my son and your daughter were a couple,
he decided to get closer to your daughter.
Please do not say it like that. It's not like that.
What's your relationship with him?
We were once together,
but after my mistake, we broke up.
It's fairly common nowadays for young people to break up, and then get back together again.
No matter what,
my son has good intentions
when he bought all of your daughter's designs.
Becoming a brand name is a dream come true for many designers.
The thing with Doyle... Did you arrange it?
Well, it wasn't completely our responsibility.
So, don't mind it that much.
Even if you break up, you still need to clear the misunderstanding, Jin Ho.
If you break up with Gae In like this, what would Gae In become in her father's eyes?
It really was an honor. Thank you so much.
Please excuse us for coming without a warning.
We apologize.
Chang Ryul.
Yes, Father?
Are your feelings towards my daughter sincere?
Yes, of course.
I caused Gae In too much pain before.
That's why she's not willing to open up to me yet.
But I will wait and work hard.
If you can make my daughter change her feelings,
then I guess we'll be meeting again.
I will work hard.
Let's talk.
If you want to talk about Chang Ryul, then don't even bother.
So, you want to keep dating the person that stole my blueprints?
I'm not sure yet.
There has got to be some kind of misunderstanding.
Jin Ho is not a person that makes those kinds of stupid mistakes.
Because he is sneaky, he'll grab onto your heart first.
That guy just now... He seems alright.
Father, you don't even know
what kind of hurt Chang Ryul caused me
and how that wound was healed by Jin Ho.
If this Jeon Jin Ho that you're protecting really is innocent,
then he should have came down here himself and explained.
But, the truth is that he didn't come.
You said that you wanted to talk with me,
but you ended up not listening to what I said.
And you don't believe me, either.
Did you enter my house just to steal them?
You're supposed to at least try and explain yourself.
Oh, Young Seon.
I heard everything from Sang Jun.
But, did you see Jin Ho yet?
- No. - Really?
From what I heard, Sang Jun said that Jin Ho was on his way to see you.
He didn't come.
Hey, I heard that there was a huge scene at the museum because of the blueprints.
- Let's hang up. - Hey!
Hey, don't hang up! Just listen to me for a second!
About that, I heard that it wasn't Jin Ho's fault.
Jin Ho didn't steal those blueprints.
What's that supposed to mean?
That fool Sang Jun assumed that they were Jin Ho's, so he took them to Director Choi to ask him to look over them.
But when Jin Ho tried to get them back, he ran into your father.
Even so, it's true that he came into my house with an ulterior motive in the first place.
Yeah, that is true.
Just be aware of that and keep in mind that Jin Ho wasn't completely wrong.
Okay, let's hang up.
Hey!
How can you even find it in yourself to eat right now?!
Father.
You want to scold me because I'm so lacking, don't you?
Even though I was wrong, I couldn't even beg for forgiveness.
Don't you find me pathetic?
But you know, Father...
There's...
nothing I can do for that woman.
That woman whose most sincere wish is to receive recognition from her father...
I made her feel ashamed in front of him.
I'm quite lacking, aren't I?
Where are you?
I'm at the rest stop where we visited together previously.
Whether you hear this message or not, I'll wait for you.
What wish did you make?
I wished that from now on, we wouldn't hide things from each other.
I was so angry before that I vowed never to see you again.
But that's impossible, for a person like me.
I wanted to give you a final chance to explain yourself, Jin Ho.
Until you tell me yourself, I'm not going to believe anything.
No matter what my eyes see or what anyone says.
Tell me that it was a misunderstanding.
That this wasn't your intention.
That from the beginning, it wasn't because of you, but because of Sang Jun.
I was the one who did everything.
Don't lie, Jin Ho.
Look at my eyes and tell me again.
The reason I entered Sanggojae,
why I pretended to be gay, and the blueprints as well.
I was the one who did all of it.
I'm not sure what Sang Jun hyung said.
But the reason why I entered your house was because I heard that Sanggojae,
was the preferred concept behind the Dam Art Gallery project.
And in order to prevent that from being discovered, I pretended to be gay.
And when I saw Professor Park's blueprints,
I wondered why I was keeping up this act.
As a woman, you had already succumbed to me.
And I was wondering to myself what I'd do if I was discovered.
Now, do you understand what I'm saying?
Why are you being like this, Jin Ho?
Why are you being this way to me?
Because although I used you to this extent,
you still believe in me... like a fool.
That's why that punk Chang Ryul dumped you too.
Do you think that I would like a pathetic woman like you?
But Jin Ho, you love me.
That's why you looked at me the way you did,
why your heart hurt because of me,
and why you held me in your arms.
I was pretending to love you.
Because I wanted to succeed, no matter what.
Because fooling a woman like you is basic math to me.
Then, you should've fooled me until the end.
Why are you telling me all this now?
If you insisted that this wasn't the case, I would've believed you.
Even if you believe me, Professor Park won't.
Fooling you alone is the easiest thing, but Professor Park isn't as stupid.
Stop being like that.
Stop speaking this way to deliberately hurt me.
You're not this kind of person, Jin Ho.
No.
The Jin Ho you knew was this kind of jerk from the beginning.
The reason why I'm talking to you like this now,
is to rid you of any remaining feelings you may have for me.
But you're acting like this because you feel sorry towards me.
Tell me that's the case.
I have nothing to be sorry for towards you.
I'm just frustrated that things didn't go the way I wanted.
And so, don't appear in front of me again.
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ Why didn't I figure it out? ♪
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ Why did I let you go? ♪
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ My heart that's overflowing with tears ♪
♪ Finally, it has finally come to know ♪
♪ That my love belongs to that person alone ♪
I won't love Park Gae In.
I don't love Park Gae In.
I've never loved Park Gae In.
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ Why didn't I figure it out? ♪
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ Why did I let you go? ♪
♪ Where did you go at such a late hour? ♪
♪ Where did you go? ♪
Jin Ho and I have broken up like you wanted, Father.
Have you decided to come back home now?
Yes.
So you and that young lady have broken up now, right?
Yes.
All right, thank you.
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ Why didn't I figure it out? ♪
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ Why did I let you go? ♪
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ My heart that's overflowing with tears ♪
♪ Finally, it has finally come to know ♪
♪ That person is ♪
♪ the only one I love ♪
♪ That person is ♪
♪ the only one who lulls my heart to sleep ♪
♪ Like a fool ♪
♪ I've finally figured it out ♪
♪ That it keeps calling for that person ♪
♪ Because I can't live without ♪ ♪ that person in my life ♪
You're looking alright.
I'm getting worried that this is coming along slower than I expected.
If I were to keep up with the deadline, I need to be done by next week.
But I'll need to work overtime every day to achieve that.
Gae In.
You must be having a hard time with various things going on...
Don't over exert yourself.
I think you're too good to me, Director.
If you keep this up, your other employees will all resent you.
Gae In, there's that promise you made with me before, right?
What?
I'd like to give you the third degree, Gae In.
Follow me.
Oh, hey. Did you see Gae In yesterday?
You did the right thing.
Even though in the beginning, your intentions were wrong,
you didn't do anything bad after you entered that house.
Honestly, after Gae In met you, she completely transformed.
Isn't that enough?
- I broke up with Gae In. - That's right, you and Gae In...
You broke up with her?
We're going to keep going with the Dam Art Gallery project, so don't worry too much.
This is delicious.
This is delicious, and so is this.
But, the expression on your face
shows that you're not sure if you're eating through your mouth or your nose.
You know that your ability to act is lacking, right Gae In?
Aren't friends there for you to vent to when you're going through difficult times?
Please tell me. What happened with President Jeon?
He told me that it was all his doing.
That from the beginning, he never loved me as a woman.
I see.
But, Park Gae In.
Do you believe that?
If it were for the sake of success,
why didn't he continue to pretend to be gay?
And also,
when he confessed to me that he wasn't gay,
do you know what Jeon Jin Ho said to me?
"I'm sorry. I love Park Gae In."
No matter what that person says with his mouth,
it's possible to look in his eyes and see what he truly means, don't you think?
Did Jeon Jin Ho's gaze confirm that what he was saying was all true?
Ah. I can't keep it together since I haven't slept in a few days.
I need to go and get some sleep.
Are you just going to leave like this?
Huh?
You're not going to go see Gae In?
Jin Ho!
The Director wants to see you.
Hey.
It looks like Director Choi hasn't thrown in the towel with you yet.
I thought you'd give up for sure, but you're brave for continuing to compete.
Out of the preliminary proceedings, only one model will be chosen as worthy.
Do you believe you have a chance at winning?
To be honest, I'm not quite sure at this point.
But, I'm just trying to give my all in this situation.
Did you pretend to be gay to enter Sanggojae?
Then, what are your true feelings for Park Gae In?
Was that also false?
What significance does the way I feel hold now?
The first time I saw you, Jeon Jin Ho,
I thought that you were a spontaneous person who went for what he wanted.
And the fact that I didn't have that trait made you appealing to me as well.
But, if you only look forward as you run,
you eventually are blinded to other things.
I...
have decided to believe in you one last time, Jeon Jin Ho.
I still have some remaining affection for you, you see.
I will try to set up a meeting with Professor Park, so please try and resolve this.
I'm thankful for the thought, but it's all right.
Since I fastened the first button wrong,
it was obvious that the last button turned out this way.
Why aren't you considering refastening that first button?
I'm sorry.
Hey. Can't you forgive Jin Ho now?
It's all over now, so does forgiveness matter?
Do you think relationships between men and women end that easily?
All right fine, the beginning was a bit tainted,
but you know, I know, and the whole world knows that Jin Ho loves you.
If you're going to keep talking about that, let's go.
Okay, okay. Sit down.
Let's guzzle down another drink.
You know, when I heard what was going on, that they had to move to another office,
and they have a huge number of expenses to pay.
So it seemed like Jin Ho was going through a really rough time...
Hey, Lee Young Seon!
Alright, fine. Jeez, I can't even talk in front of you.
Don't talk about that person in front of me.
Please, I'm begging you.
Hearing about that person is too difficult for me,
so please stop.
Please.
Dramatic much?
Alright, let's just go.
All I do every day is watch my kid, so why are you ruining tonight for me?
What are you doing? Get up.
Hurry!
Gae In.
Park Gae In!
Why did you come here?
Please come and work this out between you two.
I'm sorry.
Please take Gae In home.
Am I someone who plays all the time?
Are you really going to be like this, Jin Ho?
I'm the punk who has no reason to see Gae In again.
Fine do whatever you want! I have to go home,
so I don't care if someone kidnaps Gae In or not. I'm leaving her here.
Gae In, get up now. Huh?
Oh, Jin Ho!
If you were going to come anyway, why did you try and hold back?
I don't know anymore. So whether you fight this out or not, I'm leaving.
Jin Ho.
How much did you drink?
Get on my back.
Let go of me.
You can't even walk right because you're drunk.
Why did you come?
I'm asking why you came!
I don't know either.
After I got Young Seon's call, I came running without realizing.
But why would you, Jin Ho?
Why did you come running, Jin Ho?
We broke up.
That means it's all over.
If you keep going, you're going to fall. Just get on my back when I tell you to.
Why would I?
Do I look like such an easy woman to you?
Someone who comes when you tell me to come,
and goes when you tell me to go?
Don't come looking for me again.
Even if you hear that I've died, pretend you didn't hear.
Why would you die, Gae In?
This is worse than hell.
It would've been better if I hadn't met a guy like you.
When Han Chang Ryul and I broke up,
if I suffered by myself and went through it alone,
I would've been able to smile like I normally do right about now.
Please, just get on my back.
When I met you, everything became a mess!
Let go.
Let go of me!
Park Gae In's weather forecast for tomorrow.
The once clear skies have turned a murky gray storm after this farewell.
Because of the tornado in my heart, everything has become a complete mess.
But still...
This man's back is very warm.
From now on, there won't be another time when I'm carried on his back, right?
Gae In!
F-Father.
You were drinking with him until now?
N-no. You see...
A kid like you, really.
No matter how thoughtless you are,
if I spoke to you that much,
despite how young you are,
you should've been able to understand.
You really are inept, aren't you?
I'm sorry.
Go to your room. It's late.
Gae In didn't do anything wrong.
I was the one who was wrong. So why are you apologizing, Gae In?
I know very well that even if I had ten mouths, I still would have nothing I could say.
However,
the only wrong that Gae In committed was believing my lies and loving me in spite of them.
What?
Do you have any idea how difficult Gae In's life has been because of you?
She put in so much effort so that she could receive recognition from you.
Who are you to interfere in our business?
I know I have no right to interfere.
But still, I can't hold back my anger.
Are you crazy, Jin Ho?
After Gae In saw the basement room for the first time,
she was incredibly sick.
She believed it to be her fault that her mother died,
and that it was to be expected that you resented her for it.
She considered herself a criminal.
Isn‘t she your daughter?
Why are you forcing her to live as a criminal?
That's enough!
What do you know, you punk?
From what I can see, you've instilled your guilty conscience onto your daughter, Professor.
You impertinent punk.
What do you know to dare run your mouth so recklessly?!
Get out!
The reason why you rejected the Dam Art Gallery project,
was because Sanggojae was the place of your failure, right?
Isn't that so?
If we lose this project, we're officially going to be at rock-bottom.
All we have to do is succeed at this project. You trust me, don't you?
What do you mean in this way?
If you reject this, I won't be able to hold back any longer.
You loved Mom a lot.
I love you as much as I loved your mom.
Even though you're in such turmoil because of Park Gae In,
I can't, for the life of me, understand why you keep trying to break up with her.
You're a liar.
From the moment you appeared in front of me,
everything you've said has been a lie.
From now on, there really will be no reason for you to see me.
Will you be going to your cabin?
President Jeon will go.
If you've decided to break up with him, you should do so.
Because I'm no longer someone whom that person needs.
So for Gae In's sake...
I can give up myself.
He said that he was in a lot of pain because he couldn't see anything else.
Jin Ho, get up!
Leave.
Don't go.
Let go.
I want to believe in you because I can't break up with you like this, Jin Ho.
[I Live Without Anything]
I've found someone to marry.
[Romance is not over yet Handsome Curly, Shin Jung Il]
So you're getting 3 billion out of this?!
Wow!
Please seduce my father.
[I can't have my father taken away like this Less than Perfect Son, Shin Byeong Dae]
The flower must make the bee come to it.
Although Hwang Se Ri's philosophy is rash, I still have my pride.
[Even if he doesn't succumb, he won't be taken from me Determined and Tough Yet Attractive Woman, Hwang Se Ri]
So you're saying you love Teacher?
Your love is fake.
[How dare this rock that's rolled here! Wholehearted, Gong Yeo Sa]
Let's get married, Teacher.
I'm happy.
I would love it if I could laugh like this until the moment I die.