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When I walk out of here...
don't call me.
That's the only way I can come see you again.
Hae Soo.
Hae Soo...
She's been sent to the disciplinary committee for visiting Jang Jae Yul that day.
Due to her emotional ties, some doctors believe
she disrupted the patient's treatment.
She's been ordered to stop seeing outpatients until the disciplinary committee's decision.
She can only teach residents at this point.
Let's have Jae Yul...
meet his family.
Just as Papillon obtained freedom by jumping off the cliff,
unless it can be avoided,
he should face it head on.
Are Jang Jae Bum and his mother doing well?
It's been about a week.
I haven't heard anything.
That means they're doing well.
I told you.
Jae Bum...
needs a mother's love.
He has conduct disorder and suffers from lack of affection.
Fine. As for the visitation order...
let's have his hyung meet him before his mother.
For self-defense.
Satisfied?
Take him to an empty room and
strip search him.
Okay.
Wow...
How come you're so pretty?
By chance...
are you an angel?
Let's go.
He may cause some noise.
Even if you hear loud voices,
wait and don't enter the room unless they're punching each other.
Have the nurses assistants standby.
Hey.
I hear Mom is the culprit.
So, what do you think?
For rotting in jail for the last fourteen years,
you think I should take the money and go away?
Hyung.
I'm so...
...sorry.
Bastard!
Hey.
What are you sorry for?
Huh? What are you sorry for?
Huh?
Tell me, asshole.
Huh?
What are you sorry for?
Huh?
For not telling...
that it's not my hyung,
but it was my mom. Is that why you're sorry?
Huh?
What are you sorry for?
Huh?
Hey.
- What are you doing? - What are you sorry for?
Huh?
Assistant!
- Tell me! - Assistant!
Assistant!
What are you sorry for?
Huh? Damn it!
Hey!
Since I'm a son of a bitch anyway...
if I knew it was Mom who killed him...
you think I would've been happily...
went to the prosecutor and said,
"It was Mom."
Huh?
Why?
She's our mom!
Huh!
"Mom was man crazy."
"My mom killed a man!"
Did you think I'd say that? Huh?
Hey.
You deserve to go crazy, asshole.
Are you the only one she gave birth to?
I also...
...came from her.
Go and wipe the blood off of him.
Leave me alone.
Leave me alone this way.
Everyone get out.
Jang Jae Yul.
I'll be right outside.
And ten minutes later,
I'll call the nurse.
You don't...
...exist.
Fortunately, he didn't get hurt too badly.
How is Jae Yul's psychological state?
As we expected.
He's been wanting to...
get beat up by his brother all this time and he did.
For some reason,
he seemed relieved.
Jang Jae Yul...
I think he's a strong person.
I just saw him fall asleep.
I'm glad we let them meet.
That's a relief.
We just got over one big hurdle.
Okay.
I'll talk to you again.
Okay.
He's eating well.
He's been like that ever since he met Jae Yul.
I think hyung is...
no longer mad at Jae Yul.
He asked me yesterday
when Jae Yul is getting discharged.
Really?
He took an evening walk.
He looks good.
My boyfriend is so handsome.
Ji sunbae.
You really can't be here.
If the disciplinary committee finds out about you acting this way,
we may have to prolong his treatment.
Why are you doing this?
I understand.
I got it.
Sorry, I'll leave.
Goodness...
My son looks so good.
Did hyung say...
...anything to you?
No.
But he's been eating well since he came to see you and
he looks more comfortable for some reason.
Mom.
I can't see Kang Woo these days.
I heard.
Professor Lee called me.
Kang Woo...
really must be fake.
Because I'm taking medication consistently,
in the last week, not even once...
did I see him.
I heard you take your medicine well, too.
You're good.
I want to go home, Mom.
You can't do that.
When I told Hae Soo I'm coming to visit you,
she made me promise.
You can't be discharged.
I'll come to your house.
Mom, you...
...watch me 24/7.
Will that work?
I'll leave if you're going to talk like this.
Mom.
I think Hae Soo...
...got in trouble at the hospital because of me.
Hae Soo is a doctor.
But she can't see patients because of me.
Mom.
It's very seldom, but...
Hae Soo comes to see me
outside my room at night.
And she cries as she leaves.
I pretend to be sleeping.
But I know everything.
It's hard to ignore.
I'll tell Hae Soo...
...not to go to your room.
No.
I'll end up waiting for her if she doesn't show.
That can't be.
She's...
...poor.
Her dad is sick and...
...has a lot of debt.
Becoming a professor is her dream.
Mom.
My sickness...
...is hard to cure.
I can relapse and...
I have to be on medication all my life.
I know.
But if you take the medicine faithfully like for high blood pressure or diabetes...
Don't be greedy, Mom.
People shouldn't live like that.
I'll do it by myself.
No.
With you, Mom.
I'll leave Hae Soo behind.
Mom.
In front of someone I love...
I don't want to lose face anymore.
Please get me out of here.
Okay?
And trust me.
As always...
I'll overcome this alone.
I'll take the medicine faithfully.
For real...
I'll take the medicine faithfully.
If I start seeing Kang Woo again,
you can...
take me to another hospital.
Okay?
Let's go, Mom.
Mother.
Jang Jae Yul still believes...
...in Kang Woo's existence.
Until he knows for himself
that Kang Woo doesn't exist,
he's not well.
- So, trust us, Mother... - The medicine...
...I'll be sure he takes it.
Medicine alone isn't enough.
The reason we want to keep him here is...
...to decrease his dependency on drugs.
And in order to...
return him to his normal state and be able to write.
For the very first time,
we have a chance to live as a family.
We will endure as a family...
...and overcome this.
Thank you for everything.
Mother.
Don't go.
No matter what you say,
I'm leaving.
Why are you so cruel to me?
When Hae Jin was drowning in the lake,
I remember...
...Yoon Chul's heart was breaking.
I don't want you to...
go through that with me.
You can get treatment.
Jang Jae Yul...
If you love me, please...
To you, love means...
in front of that person...
without hesitation...
...being vulnerable.
Not being arrogant,
but depending on him.
But that's not me.
When I got beat up by my stepfather
as a kid along with my mom,
I promised myself.
No matter who I'm with...
I'll never feel pathetic again.
Even if I annoy you...
I can't help it.
That's the way I always lived.
I'm comfortable that way.
If it's easier for you to believe that I don't love you enough,
please believe that.
This means...
I'll do this my way.
What can I do to hold onto you?
When you practice saying good-bye...
you'll be okay later.
Believe it, Hae Soo.
Jang Jae Yul.
You must trust me.
Kang Woo is a hallucination.
I'm real.
To recognize the delusion and its contradiction is
not the doctor's job.
It's your job.
Who are you, Kang Woo?
Office of the Hospital Director
How did it go with the disciplinary committee?
Suspended from seeing outpatients for a month?
Suspended from seeing outpatients for two months.
Here is the thesis material.
Organize them, okay?
How does it feel to be suspended?
I feel calm.
Why are you calm instead of getting angry?
I'm not interested in it at the moment.
What are you interested in now?
How can I bring Jang Jae Yul back from his delusion
with Kang Woo and into my reality with me?
That's the only thing on my mind.
Here.
Hello.
Really?
Okay, I'll let him know.
It's Tae Yong.
He says your books are selling well these days.
They must be amused by an author who is crazy.
Hae Soo...
isn't calling you at all.
I'm going for a walk, hyung.
Have the cell phone GPS on, okay?
Yeah.
Ugh, it's so hot.
Do you want me to pour cold water on your back?
I heard you're taking your medicine well.
Young Jin sunbae told me.
As for me,
except for the fact that I miss you...
...I'm doing well.
- Hey! - Oh, my God!
How have you been?
Have you been well?
I'm okay.
Ugh, stop that.
It hurts. Be gentle.
Be patient. I'll be done soon.
Ugh, really!
Am I dirty?
Why do you keep scrubbing me?
All day long, you're cleaning and washing rags.
Is the whole world dirty to you?
Are you the only one clean?
I know.
That's the way I am.
Ever since I fell in the outhouse with Jae Yul.
I must be crazy or something.
Everything seems dirty and stinky.
I can't sleep inside a room with a door shut.
You fell into the outhouse with Jae Yul?
Why?
Let's see, when was that?
From the start of the morning,
I was getting beat up by him.
I was running away from him all over the place.
I found a hiding place at the bottom of the mountain.
A public bathroom.
I think I stayed there the whole afternoon.
I really couldn't stand it.
So, I was about to get out.
Get over here!
That's when I heard his voice and...
Jae Yul came inside.
And the way Jae Yul looked at me...
Jae Yul and I went down to the creek to wash up.
I felt like crying, but Jae Yul said...
"Mom, isn't this funny?"
"We both fell in the outhouse."
And he laughed.
So, I laughed, too.
Since we were already wet, we decided to play.
We splashed water around.
Oh, my! Oh, my!
Oh, my! Water!
Oh, my!
That's probably when it all started.
Jae Yul started sleeping in the bathroom and
I couldn't sleep inside a room with the door shut.
I keep thinking about that lately.
At that time...
should we have both cried our hearts out?
The reason Jae Yul is sick...
Is it because he couldn't cry then?
I wonder if that's why he became ill.
Scrub.
Hey, Jae Bum.
I think you're getting black hair.
Just wipe my back.
Hey!
You're growing black hair.
Oh, my! So neat!
Jae Bum, you're growing black hair.
Stay still.
Hey, stay still.
Ugh, cold.
Doesn't it feel good to have your mom do this for you?
So cool!
So refreshing!
He's cute.
Are you eating well?
I sleep well, too.
Hae Soo has been suspended.
She's someone you left because of your decisive and picky personality.
I'm sure you're not that curious about her, but...
She got suspended for going to see you.
Because of love, she's been ashamed as a doctor.
If she told you she's doing well, she's lying.
She's not doing well.
Soo Kwang told me...
that your wife is...
...coming back from the US.
When I saw you and Hae Soo loving each other,
I wanted to be in love as well.
If my wife doesn't come, I felt like having an affair.
We decided to come and go more often.
I...
...need love.
I'm an adult adolescent.
You, too.
Don't be arrogant.
Be comforted by Hae Soo.
Get treatment at the hospital.
See Hae Soo.
You still see Kang Woo these days.
There's no reason not to see Hae Soo if you don't.
Be careful going home, hyungnim.
I'll come again.
Soo Kwang.
Let's go.
Okay.
Thanks...
for making me a cafe manager.
Since you kiss So Nyeo so much,
did kissing become a habit for you?
Bingo.
Bye.
Hyung.
Me, Hae Soo noona and Dong Min are real.
Kang Woo is fake.
We're all...
...waiting for you.
If you don't come back,
I take back calling you hyung.
Bye.
Why is Mom selling a perfectly good store?
Welcome.
Mom says...
she'll give you the money to pay Dr. Jo his money back when she sells the store.
You go traveling or study abroad with the rest of the money.
Get away from here.
I can't go study abroad...
...nor go traveling.
I have to prepare Professor Lee's thesis.
Give me a break.
You, wench!
Did you become a doctor to write someone else's thesis?
You can't even see patients because you're suspended.
I'll sell the house if I have to. Go study abroad.
Jang Jae Yul
Hello.
It's me, Hae Soo.
Ji Hae Soo
What?
It's been over a week since you left me.
How are you doing since you've abandoned me?
Are you at ease?
I'm not at ease.
Jang Jae Yul
Ji Hae Soo
Hae Soo.
Jang Jae Yul
What's wrong?
The day of your stepfather incident...
Dong Min sunbae understands you made a choice that couldn't be helped.
But no.
You...
...made a grave error.
You didn't discuss it with
your trusting hyung and the lawyer.
This time also...
you're...
...making a grave error.
Leaving me.
Refusing my help.
When we hang up this phone,
I...
will never call you again, no matter what.
I'll stick to what I say just like you.
As long as you...
believe Kang Woo to be real,
we'll have to part like this.
Jang Jae Yul.
Listen to me carefully.
When I hang up,
you will probably...
...see Kang Woo again.
If Kang Woo is in front of you...
look straight at him.
And find it.
The fact that he's your delusion and contradiction.
That's the only way we'll meet again.
Kang Woo exists.
Hae Soo...
When you see Kang Woo...
You and me...
When we made love...
...remember that moment.
When I touched you and...
...you touched me.
When I laughed in your arms and...
...cried.
That very moment.
That was truly real.
Kang Woo exists, but...
I don't understand why they keep saying he doesn't exist.
What delusion and contradiction?
I can't find it.
You can find it.
You can do it.
Kang Woo who is in front of you...
...look at him clearly.
From his head to toes.
Very very slowly.
Hold your breath and...
...take your time.
All hallucinations have...
...inconsistencies.
When you look carefully,
you'll find some inconsistency.
All patients find it that way. You can do it, too.
When you can finally see that
delusion and contradiction,
come to me.
I'll be waiting.
I really love you a lot.
You're fake.
Hae Soo is right.
Really?
As Dr. Jo said...
you're saying I'm you?
I'm me.
How can I be you?
I can't be you.
We look so different.
People are lying to you.
Just like when you got beat up,
they all turned their heads.
People can care less about someone like me.
- Even if you see me... - When I hang up the phone...
you will probably...
see Kang Woo again.
If Kang Woo is in front of you...
look straight at him.
From his head to toes.
Very very slowly.
Hold your breath and...
take your time.
All hallucinations have...
...inconsistencies.
When you look carefully,
you'll find some inconsistency.
Han Kang Woo
Don't...
...ignore me.
You and...
...me.
How many years...
has it been since we met?
Kang Woo?
Three years.
You...
What grade are you in?
Kang Woo?
Sophomore in high school.
Who...
Who are you?
I'm your fan, Han Kang Woo.
Sophomore in high school.
Han Kang Woo
What's wrong?
Author.
Tae Yong.
Follow Jae Yul using his GPS.
Immediately.
When you see Kang Woo,
when we made love......
...remember that moment.
When I touched you and...
...you touched me.
When I laughed in your arms and...
...cried.
That very moment.
That was truly real.
No!
Wow!
She knows your name now.
Tae Yong
Behind me...
There's Kang Woo...
Hae Soo.
Kang Woo...
...is fake.
Kang Woo...
He can never be me, but...
He's...
...me.
Hae Soo.
Help me.
Hae Soo, please...
Help me.
You did good. I'm glad you came.
You'll be fine, Jang Jae Yul.
You'll be fine.
Here.
In the jail...
I saved my rice to...
...make them for you.
Don't cry.
Hope will never abandon you. Only you can abandon hope.
Dr. Jo said he'll get better this time in the hospital.
Don't cry.
Make a fist.
Smile, Jang Jae Yul.
Aren't you going to call me hyung?
I'll brag about taking pictures with a famous writer.
Hae Soo.
He doesn't call me hyung.
You rude bastard. You want to get hit?
Just try that. I'll get you back two-fold.
All you do is babble.
Hey, hold.
Okay, here comes the shot.
Now...
you'll feel sleepy. Sleep.
Soo Kwang.
Let's go.
No.
I want to sleep here.
Only...
when you get hit, you listen.
Don't touch me. I have a boyfriend.
Be nervous, Jang Jae Yul.
Hyungnim, I don't want to see him.
I'm sorry, but...
more than you...
...I like Soo Kwang more.
Of course...
Some day...
let's team up and have a fight.
I'll totally beat you two up.
She hit me three times.
Hey, you two...
Oh, yeah.
When you wake up,
don't do anything.
I'll eavesdrop.
- Really. - Give that to me.
Soo Kwang, come out.
Sleep.
Don't wake him up.
Let's go to sleep.
Let's sleep.
You can see Kang Woo, huh?
Just like you said...
I just say, "Kang Woo is over there."
Just...
You're doing good.
Let's sleep.
Wrap up things here and come home.
Don't make Mother and your sister come and let things get out of hand.
I...
quit drinking since you hate it so much.
The family is trying.
Please acknowledge that.
Unni.
Stay strong.
What's with you?
You're being so compassionate to others.
I'm afraid you'll leave me.
I'll listen to you really well, so don't dump me.
Okay?
Welcome.
It's about time to let Kang Woo go.
Isn't it?
Yes.
When you were sixteen,
you had to point to your brother as the perpetrator. You must understand yourself.
That's the only way you can let Kang Woo go now.
Put who's right and who's wrong aside.
If you don't understand your behavior when you were sixteen,
Kang Woo will appear again.
I'll try.
Come.
Jae Yul.
This is Hae Soo's mother.
I beg you.
Don't hang onto my Hae Soo.
Even if you're sick,
I don't want to believe you're that selfish.
I want to go to the hospital with you, but...
you know we have to go separately, right?
Yeah.
If we bump into me at the hospital, you also know you have to ignore me, right?
A doctor in suspension...
I won't let you get fired.
Jeez...
You're such a smooth talker.
So...
you don't like it?
No...
I love it.
If you meet Kang Woo today, be sure to tell him.
Thanks for...
looking out for my lonely boyfriend all this time.
I'm...
eternally grateful to him.
And...
I'll be here by your side, so...
he can leave and rest assure, okay?
Okay.
A gift for Kang Woo...
from me...
...is in the car.
Be sure to give it to him.
You go ahead.
Alright.
It's time for bed.
Everyone get back to your rooms.
Please.
They always interrupt a good show.
Kang Woo.
Let's wash your feet.
My girlfriend...
chose a great gift.
Author.
Should I...
...not come around anymore?
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