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How long do I have to stand here like this?
I want to hold you.
Oh, boy...
I love you.
Let's stay like this for awhile.
Okay.
Hurry, wash up and come back.
I'm going to take my good old time.
To keep you hanging.
I remember.
Our first night together at the beach...
Why did you cry?
What was on your mind?
You said you'd tell me later on.
After hearing what you have to say,
if I still said I love you,
finally then...
you said you'd really believe that I love you.
And...
that you love me, too.
You said you'd tell me that.
I'll tell you tonight what I couldn't tell you then.
After you hear what I have to say,
I'm afraid you'll stop loving me altogether.
But I'll say it.
Don't say it if it's too hard for you, Hae Soo.
No, I want to.
Even though I'm strong, tenacious
and selfish...
That's me, but...
I think I can be vulnerable with you.
That's what...
...love is to me.
I was a senior in high school.
I got a call at school.
My dad was in the ER.
I wasn't even that shocked.
It had happened...
numerous times...
...before.
That day...
as I was running to the hospital,
I didn't want my dad to live.
But he revived.
I wasn't happy.
Feeling that everything was back to square one.
President Kim.
Why did you stop seeing my mother?
You used to see her. Why don't you see her and give her money anymore?
What about my college?
Why don't you see my mom anymore?
Why not?
So...
My mom and President Kim started seeing each other again.
I sold my mom...
to President Kim just like that.
And I was able to go to med school.
I love you.
I love you very much.
I love you.
Hae Soo.
I love you very much.
Han Kang Woo
Jae Yul.
The day I'm released...
you didn't forget about meeting me alone, did you?
I'll call you.
Wait for it.
Han Kang Woo
Yoon Soo unni
I'm sleepy.
We're in bed.
Should we sleep?
That's right.
On my bed.
Are you my cure?
Don't talk. Sleep.
The door is locked.
Jae Bum hyung - Come to that place where...
Mom...
you...
and I used to live.
That horrible house.
Han Kang Woo
Hello.
Hi, Kang Woo.
Sorry.
I can't right now.
Hae Soo is here and...
I'm supposed to meet my hyung.
What are you saying?
What do you mean your last?
Yeah, unni. What?
Wench, where are you?
What's going on this late at night?
I heard it from So Nyeo.
I heard Jang Jae Yul is crazy.
Hey.
Jang Jae Yul isn't crazy. He's sick.
Give me the phone.
Give me the phone!
Calm down.
Young Jin sunbae - Seochogu Seocho 8 dong
Hi, Hae Soo.
Hi, sunbae.
Just now...
I texted you Jang Jae Yul's home address.
Come in the ambulance.
Should I go now?
Or should I wait a bit more?
Do you want to be together longer?
Jae Yul...
is sleeping in his bed comfortably for the first time.
I want him to sleep a little longer like this, but...
Alright then. We'll leave in thirty minutes.
Please I ask you.
Just the way he is now...
I want him to be transported without knowing anything.
Please prepare the shots.
The door is locked.
Jang Jae Bum is out?
Stop talking, Editor. I don't have time.
Hurry.
Go to Mom, hurry!
I got it.
Got it.
Drive safely.
Hi, Hae Soo.
Is Jae Yul with you?
I'm sorry, Hae Soo.
- I'm just... - Hae Soo, are you listening?
- ...too worried about Kang Woo. - Hae Soo!
I'm going to go see him.
He told me he called me for the last time.
It bothers me.
By the way, my hyung has been released.
Show Kang Woo.
I'll see Kang Woo and...
Yangsuri highway 16. Never!
I'll meet hyung.
Sunbae.
Go to Yangsuri highway 16. He went that way.
Jang Jae Yul
Han Kang Woo
If I don't win this writing competition,
I'll just die.
Then the insurance will pay out, right?
I'll let my mom have that money.
Han Kang Woo
Ji Hae Soo
Jang Jae Yul.
Sorry, Hae Soo.
Where are you?
Kang Woo...
You know...
Kang Woo...
Hae Soo.
Can I...
...call you later?
Just tell me where you are, Jang Jae Yul.
Just tell me where you are.
I'm on my way to Kang Woo's house.
Almost there...
Jang Jae Yul!
Prepare the shot.
Where else? I'm on my way, too.
Hyung...
- I'll be a little late. - What?
Jeez...
Why will you be late?
Jae Bum hyung
You're coming in a car and I'm walking.
Are you scared...
...to meet me?
Why would I be scared to meet you?
Jae Bum hyung
Han Kang Woo
I'm so happy when I think about drinking with you.
Han Kang Woo
Hyung, wait a minute.
Kang Woo, where are you right now?
Ugh...
Ugh, how dare you...
I'm on my way home after school.
I can't talk on the phone too long.
My mom is getting ready for the move.
I have to go and help her.
Kang Woo.
See me before you go.
Don't go like this.
Where are you?
I was...
really happy because of you, Author.
I'm not worthy.
Yet you took care of me
and you coddled me.
No one in the world did that for me.
I wanted to win the competition.
Just the way you did for your mom...
I wanted to make her proud.
You understand, right?
How grateful I am to you.
Don't say good-bye, Kang Woo.
Don't say...
things like that yet.
I'm sorry.
Honestly...
you were burdensome to me.
So, even though I know how hard it is for you,
I didn't go looking for you.
I'm sorry.
I won't do that again, Kang Woo.
Kang Woo.
No!
Kang...
Over there...
Wait.
Kang...
Jae Yul!
Jang Jae...
Jang Jae Yul.
Hae Soo.
That...
Kang Woo...
Do something.
I'm...
I'm okay.
Kang Woo...
Kang...
Kang Woo...
Do something...
What do I do?
His Lou Gehrig's disease...
is fabricated by his subconsciousness and shares illness and pain with Han Kang Woo.
A delusional disability.
It's the perfect example of the mind ruling over the body.
Oh So Nyeo thinks...
you're cool for not abandoning Jang Jae Yul. She wants to be a doctor like you.
Ji Hae Soo is so cool.
I told her to shut up for you.
Sleep.
To summarize the circumstances up to this point,
Jang Jae Yul's reality testing shows
Reality testing - process of distinguishing the internal world of thoughts and feelings from the external world.
his inner being is shattered.
Three years ago, when the patient
was attacked by his hyung,
he subconsciously knew his brother's blame
will never go away unless he died.
That's when...
his first hallucination happened.
His subconsciousness
used Kang Woo to drive himself to death.
He comes up with a scenario for his own death.
"I'll die trying to save Kang Woo."
His subconsciousness chose an accidental death
instead of a suicide...
in order to hurt his mother less, whom he loved so much.
And he figured...
that's the best reward for his brother
who spent the last fourteen years in jail.
Also...
that is the only way his mother would remain in a state of dissociation.
The perfect scenario.
Uncle Jo's Mental Health Office
Telling Jang Jae Bum everything to him today...
I'm not sure if I did the right thing.
We threw the dice already.
Thank you.
Alright then.
Evidence - 4
Property donation agreement
At least he has a conscience.
He gave everything to me.
Bastard.
Tell Mother she's the killer.
Cure my mom.
Give amytal to my mom.
Someone who is lying will tell the truth with amytal, but...
someone in dissociation has erased her memory.
Amytal is no use.
If you want to cure her, you do it.
Am I a doctor?
Rather than a doctor,
a thug like you will do a better job.
Go to your mom immediately and
tell her the truth you can't change and if she can't remember
tell her over and over and over again. Bug her.
There's no scientific proof, but
you never know.
Hey.
Is that something a doctor should say?
It's your family, jerk.
It's your younger brother.
It's your mother.
The choice falls on the family's oldest son.
You.
Your brother is hospitalized with a mental disorder over the guilt.
Your mom lived her whole life getting beaten up.
Now by her side,
she only has you, a thug.
Isn't this enough payback?
You only care about your own pain.
You childish bastard who can care less about other people's pain.
A three year old with gray hair.
You kid...
Bastard!
You'd be dead if it wasn't for that CCTV.
Hyungnim!
Jae Bum hyung...
He can't leave like that.
Stop him.
Go to Jae Yul's mom immediately and
listen to what Jae Bum says.
Report back to me.
Okay.
What?
Did you eat?
You cry over Jae Yul everyday.
Are you that curious to know whether I ate or not?
Jae Yul is...
...in the hospital.
He'll get better.
That's what the doctors said.
I believe that, too.
I'm going to make some bean paste stew. Do you want some clams or meat?
Jae Bum, talk to me.
You like both clams and meat.
Tell me.
- What should I put? - Clams, clams, clams!
Ugh!
Damn it!
I hear because of Jang Jae Yul,
Dr. Ji Hae Soo will only see outpatients.
Jang Jae Yul...
His active symptoms seem to have calmed down a bit since yesterday.
Active Symptom - signs and symptoms such as hallucinations that reflect an impaired ability to function.
It's about time since it's been almost two weeks.
You know, Dr. Ji is quite something.
I don't think I can see patients if I were her.
I know.
Choi Sung Eun.
Trouble with eating and sleeping.
What brought you to a psychiatrist with these problems?
You're quite progressive.
I was told I have no problems from the internal medicine or surgery department.
But I still have the problem.
When did you start having problems eating and sleeping?
You don't want to part with him that much?
Isn't sleeping here uncomfortable?
Not really.
I had to share a room as an intern and resident.
This makes for a nice hotel.
Why?
Are people talking?
They're worried for you.
But...
I'm checking up on your patients.
Upon the hospital's request. You understand, right?
I want to see Jang Jae Yul.
When will you let me?
Wait until he's more stable.
Besides you,
his mom or hyung...
No one should see him.
We're going to have him...
...watch the CCTV recording.
The reason we forcibly hospitalized you...
Do you know now?
You kept getting hurt.
We had no choice.
Mom...
My mom...
is...
...innocent.
My mom is innocent.
I know.
I feel...
...sorry for hyung.
I...
Jae Yul.
Where is Kang Woo?
Is Kang Woo here?
This is a hospital.
Outsiders can't come in here. Why is he here?
Jae Yul.
Why is that?
I can't see him, but you do.
In the recording earlier,
Kang Woo wasn't there, but
you saw Kang Woo there.
Is something strange?
That is strange, but...
you still think Kang Woo is here.
Then...
who is Kang Woo?
Is he a fabrication of your heart?
No.
Kang Woo...
...exists.
Kang Woo...
...trusts me.
If it wasn't for me,
Kang Woo has no one.
A kid with nothing...
everyone feels...
...uncomfortable around him.
They ignore.
Do you think I'd do that, too?
Hae Soo, too?
Hae Soo.
I miss her.
When you were getting beat up...
Did people do that when your mom was getting beat up?
They were uncomfortable and
...ignored?
To hyung, too.
Then Jae Yul...
Are you Kang Woo?
No.
Kang Woo is...
Kang Woo.
After taking medication,
appearance of Kang Woo's hallucination did decrease, but
he's still unaware.
He thinks it's strange we can't see Kang Woo.
But he believes in Kang Woo's existence.
He doesn't have delusion of a victim mentality or exaggeration which commonly accompanies schizophrenia
which is a good sign.
But his obsession over Kang Woo is greater than we expected.
For awhile...
I don't think you can see him.
I'm leaving.
Jae Bum, eat.
Jae Bum, you should eat.
I don't want to eat.
Don't you think we should go inside?
Dong Min said
not to get in between them.
He said to watch them.
You didn't eat lunch either.
Did you lose your appetite?
Should I make some porridge? Do you want that?
You like porridge.
Jeez, really!
You're too noisy!
Why are you scrubbing the floor so much?
You're scrubbing the clean floor over and over again.
Wiping over and over again.
You...
Go and eat.
There's not much to it, but it's delicious.
You know taste.
It's a new item.
Hae Soo...
Are you sure she broke up with Jae Yul?
Yes.
Why isn't she answering my call?
Did her battery die?
Maybe she's busy.
Tell Hae Soo.
She'll see her mom die if she's lying.
Be sure to tell her.
Her mom and sister are freaking out.
Tell her not to have other thoughts.
I told you they broke up.
Dude, I can see right through you.
You came over to spy because my sister-in-law told you to.
We have to take care of Father as is.
She really can't.
Be sure to tell her.
Welcome.
Have a seat.
What?
If I go to college, are you going to support me with tuition?
I asked you.
What don't you answer me?
Why are you avoiding me?
Why would I support you with tuition? I'm your boyfriend, not your money bag.
I don't deal with money even though I love you.
You take care of it.
Because my friend came by the cafe and said you were cool,
you don't like me anymore, huh?
Am I like you?
Money matters separately, love together.
That's what I'm talking about.
Okay.
I love you, Park Soo Kwang.
Here you go.
I'm quitting as of today.
Tell the boss.
Hae Soo is a great doctor.
When she cures Jang Jae Yul's sickness...
I couldn't sleep well.
Please understand.
It's time to take your medicine.
You did good.
Rest.
Nurse.
Do I...
really...
...look like a schizo?
You've improved quite a lot.
These circumstances are
hard to overcome with only love.
I honestly don't think they'll last forever.
But I still want to cheer them on.
If they live happily ever after,
I wonder if I'll start to believe in love.
So, I light a candle for them at home.
Please help them...
...whoever you are.
They're family members of a schizo patient we met at the rehab center.
The patient relapsed.
They're greatly disappointed.
You can't let your guard down with Hae Jin either.
Be alert for the rest of your life.
What's this?
How did you get so much better?
I even go to school now.
Remember it's all thanks to me, okay?
The author Jang Jae Yul...
it's all over the Internet that he has a mental disorder.
Did you know?
I heard he's in this hospital.
I know.
He's my boyfriend.
You can go now.
I have to work.
Thanks for the gift.
Doctor.
The numerous patients...
you treated...
Don't forget them.
Stay strong.
I'll go.
Okay.
Go home.
I'll go when I'm done with work.
I'll wait then.
Dad's poop is too watery.
For someone who's lying down all day,
two liters a day is too much.
Bring it down to one liter.
It will be easier on you as well.
You live comfortably.
What about me?
What about you?
I broke up with Jang Jae Yul...
How dare you lie to your mother...
It's true.
You'll have to apologize for...
...slapping me.
It's really true.
If that's the case, good.
If not...
you'll get hit a thousand times more.
Mom.
Don't say you learned it from me.
Yoon Soo said...
being loyal to a man...
She said you learned it from me.
Is that true?
Probably from what I've seen...
Is that the only thing you saw living with me?
When did you forget about me being sick of your dad
and having an affair with President Kim?
I put you both down for the night and
went to see President Kim for some time. Why did you forget that?
I told you not to go to med school.
I said how dare you dream of med school from this dog gone family?
I called you a selfish bitch.
Why did you forget me calling you a heartless bitch?
If your dad wasn't sick,
would I have said that to my daughter
who wants to study as a mother?
Do you know what it's like to live with a patient?
He doesn't even recognize his wife.
He doesn't even recognize his children.
Don't speak carelessly about Dad.
Your dad doesn't know anything.
He can't even come here.
Even though I hit you.
Believing that he's okay in his head and that he just can't speak...
...that's my delusion.
That's my delusion for me to survive.
Mom.
Even if you don't call me Mom, I'm still your mom.
Never mind.
You're really going to end it with Jang Jae Yul.
For real.
Go home.
Who asked you to do the dishes?
Go!
Don't cry.
Hae Soo...
I can't ask her to live like me.
That can never happen even if you're sad about it.
I quit the cafe.
You said you broke up with Jang Jae Yul.
I'll believe it wholeheartedly.
You know I went to a community college because of you, right?
You'd better behave if you have a conscience.
Sunbae, you can't do this.
Sunbae, let's not do this.
For three days,
he hasn't seen Kang Woo.
That's a relief.
Let me just see his face.
If he sees you, he may have another episode out of guilt.
Episode - usually a reoccurring, pathologically-abnormal condition.
Endure.
I'll just see his face.
We'll get suspended if Dr. Lee and the Chairman finds out about this.
We won't tell.
I won't tell Young Jin sunbae.
As for the Chairman,
you keep quiet.
Are you going to tell?
Then from outside of his room...
Inside the room, just the two of us.
You've come a long way.
High and mighty sunbae like me...
You won't budge even though I promise not to tell.
You'll be a good doctor.
Exactly ten minutes.
Fifteen minutes.
Hi.
I changed it to you from Yoon Chul.
Wow...
Let's see what my boyfriend is reading.
When the wind blows...
let it blow and let it be.
When the longing visits you...
let it come and let it go.
There will be pain.
It will stay with you.
It will come and go.
This poem is nice.
Jang Jae Yul.
Like this poem...
everything will pass.
You look good.
I can't...
I can't speak well.
I can't walk well either.
It's because of the medicine.
I would...
...really miss you.
Then I get sleepy.
Just wait a little longer.
You won't feel that way later.
Even now...
it's...
it's been awhile since I saw you...
and I want to grab onto you.
I...
don't know what to do.
I can't think.
You will be able to later.
I want to...
...hug you.
But I don't think I can.
Aren't I sexy?
Hae Soo.
Yeah?
Let...
Let me go.
In here...
I...
I don't feel like myself.
Seeing Kang Woo...
If that's my sickness...
With my willpower,
I'll fix it.
Believe in me and...
let me get out.
I will never...
see Kang Woo again.
Being in here...
makes me feel so pathetic.
I hate this feeling.
Just...
...let me go.
Should...
Should I not say this?
Then...
will you go away?
I'll come back again.
If I hold onto you...
they'll give me another shot, huh?
You have to trust me.
Kang Woo is a hallucination.
I'm real.
There's a limit to medication.
Even if you see Kang Woo...
you have to recognize him as hallucination in order to cure yourself.
Kang Woo is...
a fabrication of yourself. You must know that.
To recognize that delusion and its shortcoming is
not the doctor's job.
It's your job.
I'll do that at home.
When I walk out of here...
don't call me.
That's the only way I can come see you again.
No...
Hae Soo.
You were right.
I should've never seen him.
He had another episode.
Tell Young Jin sunbae not to decrease his dosage.
I think you may need to increase the dosage.
It's Okay, That's Love
When Kang Woo is in front of you,
look straight at him.
And find it.
He's your delusion.
How many years...
has it been...
...since we've met?
Author!
You can find it.
You can do it.
Good-bye.
Jang Jae Yul.