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I'm here.
What's going on?
What's with your expressions?
Huh?
Have a seat.
What's wrong?
Something to drink?
Something cold.
Oh...
I just poured this one.
What is it?
Did I do something wrong?
Jae Yul is very sick, Hae Soo.
What?
What are you talking about?
From what we've identified,
we think he has schizophrenia.
Schizophrenia - a mental disorder characterized by abnormal behavior and failure to recognize what is real.
What are the active symptoms?
Active Symptom - signs and symptoms such as hallucinations that reflect an impaired ability to function.
Do you know about Kang Woo?
Did Jae Yul tell you?
Yes, often.
Kang Woo is a hallucination.
Visual hallucination - the perception of an object or event in the absence of an external stimulus.
Kang Woo doesn't exist.
I looked into it.
His school...
his home...
Kang Woo doesn't exist anywhere.
Even today, I...
asked where Kang Woo's novel was.
Dong Min hyungnim went and
looked inside his drawers everywhere.
But it wasn't there.
Yes.
Did the phone ring?
Didn't you hear it?
Hi, Kang Woo.
Three years ago when I got stabbed by hyung with a fork,
he was crying for me like other fans.
Kang Woo...
got into an accident.
Kakao Group
You've...
...won me over 51%.
That's not enough.
Look at the computer on the desk.
Jang Jae Yul
Yeah, it's me.
Hey, Ji Hae Soo.
What's with this text?
What?
If I've won you over 51%,
we're back to square one.
Back to square one is zero.
Hey...
...you win.
Fine.
Let's start over.
Where are you?
At a meeting.
I see.
You seem...
...a little tense.
Go home safe.
And don't call.
I'll be writing.
I won't say...
I love you. You might get bored hearing it.
What is this episode?
Episode - usually a reoccurring, pathologically-abnormal condition.
Last time,
Jae Yul said he got into a fight with Kang Woo's dad.
The CCTV in the area captured it.
A kid I know...
got beat up by his father.
A kid I like named Kang Woo.
I saw him getting beat up by his father and I couldn't hold myself back.
Why did you get involved in someone else's family affair?
When my mom and I...
got beat up by my stepdad,
that's what people said.
It's other people's business.
No one got involved.
For my family as a result...
something big happened that shook the world.
The perpetrator of the incident 14 years ago...
...was his mother.
After the stabbing,
there was a fire.
In a state of dissociation, we think his mother set the fire.
Dissociation - a separation from a normal mental processes. Part of the brain functions independently from the rest.
When you look at the circumstances,
she still can't remember.
At the time,
Jae Yul pointed to his brother as the perpetrator to protect his mom.
And because of the guilt that was too much for him to bear,
he has been struggling.
Kang Woo is...
Jae Yul's young self.
But...
more than seeing Kang Woo's hallucination,
the bigger problem is...
getting injured while protecting Kang Woo
comes from his guilt about his hyung.
The fact that it's an unconscious self injury.
He has no idea.
He should be examined further.
Do the brain MRI and psychological testing.
Brain MRI - magnetic and radio wave scan used to take pictures of the head.
Function - a person's ability to perform a task.
We should also check out his brain's ability to function.
Do you think it's a problem with his brain rather than mental disorder?
We can't rule out that possibility.
How would you explain the three years of his symptoms?
I think...
he should be hospitalized immediately.
What do you think?
I want to talk after the exams.
Were there any...
self injury behaviors...
...that you witnessed?
Hold on tight.
Let's go!
If his tendency to injure himself is too great, we can't allow for more time.
There were none.
Jang Jae Yul...
I'll convince him to get tested.
She's lying.
It's sympathy.
Sympathy - an understanding between people and common feelings.
Hae Soo...
She can't be included as one of his doctors.
She can't remain close to Jang Jae Yul either.
For both of their sakes.
Hyungnim.
Should I tell Jae Yul...
that Kang Woo doesn't exist? That he should come to his senses?
It's more dangerous to approach him in haste.
Tae Yong.
Go to Jae Yul for now.
In most cases, the climax of hurting oneself comes down to...
...suicide.
Tae Young asked?
Yeah, why don't we find it for him since he needs it?
Ugh, that guy...
Where did you put Kang Woo's novel?
Let's see...
It's at...
It was that day you came into my room.
Oh, you know...
I have something to say.
Come in.
Why did you write this novel?
Is the reason you're chasing me around...
...merely this?
You have no imagination and
you gathered all the news articles from my past.
It's not my hyung but me? You just changed the culprit to Jang Jae Yul.
Don't ever call me again.
Are you taking advantage of me because I coddled you?
You left the room then and...
I picked up the script and...
Oh, yeah.
It's in there.
The first drawer on the right side of my desk.
Hae Soo, do you see it?
No, I don't see it.
You must not remember it clearly.
There's no way...
Jang Jae Yul, I'm sleepy.
Okay, go to sleep, Hae Soo.
Hae Soo...
you stay out of his treatment.
If guilt is the problem,
the more he feels happy with you,
he will be even more compelled to hurt himself.
I know that much.
You taught me everything.
What you should be doing is...
Are you guys the only doctors?
From the point of phenomenological method of diagnosis,
I have not seen any lack of function in him.
Function - a person's ability to perform a task.
Why do you rule out the possibility of a brain tumor?
Why deduce schizophrenia?
Schizophrenia - a mental disorder characterized by abnormal behavior and failure to recognize what is real.
Schizo?
Go home.
Schizo...
It's a mental disorder, right?
When I was in group therapy...
Sorry.
I just...
spit words out thoughtlessly.
Do you hate me?
I don't hate you.
Go home.
Okay.
Hey, hey, hey.
Don't tell your mom yet.
It's not like you won. What if she's disappointed?
Hyungnim, talk to me for a minute.
Schizophrenia is controllable with medication just like diabetes or high blood pressure.
With medication, 70% of the patients...
...can live a normal life.
You said these words to numerous patients and their family.
Remember?
I'm staying out tonight.
Recognizing Suicidal Patients, OCD Study, Treating Mental Disorder, Case Studies.
Tae Yong hyung.
I'll go see Jang Jae Yul.
You go home.
What's this?
Suddenly, I didn't like my place and I missed you.
What?
What are you shocked? It's not like I said I loved Ji Hae Soo.
Oh, yeah.
So Nyeo is hanging onto me these days.
What a hassle.
Ugh, you're so stuck up.
What are you doing?
This is for telling me that I'm a man among men.
This is the first time I've hugged another man.
Drink with me if you want.
Are you really going to sleep here?
No use kicking me out. I'll just come back.
If you're going to stay here,
don't even breathe loud.
If guilt is the problem,
the more he feels happy with you,
he will be even more compelled to hurt himself.
My stomach is...
...bleeding.
I'm sorry.
It's my turn to cook and I overslept.
Wait a moment.
Have some eggs before you go.
And...
Soo Kwang boiled some eggs.
Hey, Hae Soo.
Take a few of these.
Hae Soo!
That dork. He told me he boiled them.
Oh Sang Min. 33 years old.
Schizophrenia.
Schizophrenia - a mental disorder characterized by abnormal behavior and failure to recognize what is real.
Active Symptom - signs and symptoms such as hallucinations that reflect an impaired ability to function.
Haloperidol, Chlorpromazine, Risperidone - antipsychotic drugs used to treat schizophrenia.
His active symptoms started to disappear three days ago.
I think we should lower the dosage starting today.
50ml of Haloperidol.
300ml of Chlorpromazine.
Risperidone...
Finish his medication through this week.
Because the patient was suffering so much,
Dr. Ji said to...
He relapsed three times in the last five years.
Which is more important? The patient's safety or his mood?
Alright.
Doctor, I'm begging you.
Doctor...
How many times do I have to say no?
Please write me a prescription.
My child is seriously overactive.
Your child is quite normal according to the test results.
Why is this woman yelling at me?
I'm telling you your child is normal. Does that make you mad?
What?
If he takes ADHD medication,
ADHD - Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder.
who told you he'll be able to focus better and get better grades?
My...
...next door neighbor.
ADHD medication is...
effective for the patient.
But if a normal child takes it, do you know how serious the side effects are?
How can you listen to such a thing when you have no clue?
If you don't give it to me, I'll just go get it somewhere else.
Jeez, gosh...
Mother.
Which hospital gives out meds to a perfectly normal child?
I'll report them.
Huh?
What the heck? Jeez...
All kids are overactive when they're growing up.
Be patient and wait.
Okay?
Then I'll meet you there.
Okay.
Leave outpatients to Dr. Kim and...
I already did.
Let's go get some tea then.
I'm meeting Jang Jae Yul's mother.
Go with Jo Dong Min.
You're too sympathetic.
Sympathy - understanding between people and common feelings.
What basis do you have?
The fact that you're not requesting help from me or Jo Dong Min.
Only when you ask for help,
that's when you're normal.
Jo Dong Min, where are you?
Let's eat.
Don't ignore me.
Hey, hey.
Hey, hey, hey.
Hey.
What are you doing?
You've never seen a jerk like me, huh?
You couldn't even sleep for an hour.
I checked the time you went into the bathroom.
Wanna die?
Eat.
How should you deal with a guy like me...
Would you like to know?
What else besides beating the crap out of you?
Lose.
By chance...
instead of seeing me as Ji Hae Soo's trained puppy,
do you see me as a neighborhood pup?
Here.
Why are you doing this?
You should get hit. There, there!
Laughing?
Don't tell Ji Hae Soo.
It's just a gastritis.
I got a text from So Nyeo.
Hae Soo noona.
Jang Jae Yul barely slept an hour last night.
He can't eat and is nauseous.
Soo Kwang - Jang Jae Yul barely slept an hour last night. He can't eat and is nauseous.
46.
48.
44.
C'mon.
50.
I won.
Please get lost, you dork.
Do you know you get sick if you don't sleep and eat?
I lost on purpose.
Why don't you get Hae Soo's help?
I can take care of it.
Do you always live this way?
Always taking care of everything yourself?
Yeah.
What is it?
How moving.
I made it for noona when I heard you two spent the night together.
But since you two are one.
I'll tell you now.
We're separate but...
...together.
Not always one.
What are you doing?
The ignorant people say this is my state of mind.
Or...
schizophrenic like Hae Jin's mind.
All messed up and...
crumpled up like a trashy brain.
Not being able to recognize family...
Not being able to recognize...
...someone you love.
Even after hurting someone,
there's no guilt.
But we're not like that.
Major parts of us are normal and
only partially...
...sick.
Do you think so?
Yeah.
There we go.
This is my case.
Among 365 days,
only few seconds or a few minutes are interrupted.
A schizo like Hae Jin noona is...
...maybe like this?
Because of chemical imbalance of the brain or pain in her heart,
her perfect part of the world is ripped apart like this.
Reality and delusion?
Something like that.
Can she put these pieces...
...back in the right places?
With the patient's will power and
...a doctor's help.
It's neat.
I'm leaving.
Don't ever come around again.
I'll probably be back.
Why are you making that flower?
To give it to my mom.
She will be sad when Jae Yul is gone.
I should give her some flowers.
Right?
Wait a minute.
If you go back to jail this time,
you can never get out.
I'll pay for it.
Don't call the police.
Ugh, so needless...
In a state of dissociation, his mother set the fire.
When you look at the circumstances,
she still can't remember.
At the time,
Jae Yul pointed to his brother as the perpetrator to protect his mom.
He has been struggling because of the guilt that was too much for him to bear.
Your place is so pretty.
Jae Yul has never invited me to his place before.
Hae Soo...
Thanks to you...
I even get to come over here.
I even bought clothes to prepare for Jae Bum's release.
I'm really happy.
But what is this about?
Asking me to meet you.
You know, Mother...
Oh!
You're here, Mother.
Oh, my, Doctor!
Hello.
Wow...
Hey...
Tae Yong.
Tae Yong...
What's wrong?
Huh?
Tae Yong.
- What's wrong with you? - Hae Soo.
Excuse us for a moment.
Mother.
I hate to tell you this, but..
Jae Yul is sick.
What?
You're going to be a doctor?
Yeah.
If unni can cure Jang Jae Yul ahjussi,
I want to be a psychiatrist like unni.
Aren't you proud of me?
Coming up with thoughts like this?
Don't kid around. You think anyone can become a doctor? Go work.
You're just like everyone else.
You think I can't study and
don't have any dreams.
Be quiet.
Hey.
Learn to watch people's mood.
Can't you tell Hae Soo and I are struggling over Jang Jae Yul?
I, the one you like...
am struggling right now.
Because you're struggling,
I want to make you feel better.
That's why I'm making you talk.
Then should I be like unni...
and like you...
...cry and frown?
Is that the right way?
She's maturing.
Oh So Nyeo.
I love you.
Hello.
Give me a croquette.
One croquette coming up.
Then...
hospitalizing Jae Yul...
We'll assume we have your permission.
I didn't get into details.
I just told her it was stress due to the incident.
I simply told her about his sickness.
Mother.
Jae Yul's illness is curable.
He can be cured and...
Yeah.
I heard...
...from the doctor.
You must've been...
...shocked.
It's just a sickness.
We can treat it.
I'll get going.
Don't walk me out.
Mom.
Are you okay?
If I'm not...
...what will I do?
I will be okay.
After my husband's death,
I watched my son rot in jail...
...for fourteen years.
Dr. Jo tells me...
...it's curable.
He'll be okay if he gets treatment.
That's what he said.
There are two candles.
Is it for Jae Yul?
I'm going to see Jae Yul.
Talk to me.
What will you say to Jae Yul when you see him?
What will you...
...say to him?
I don't know.
What do I do?
I feel like an idiot.
Of all people, I'm a doctor.
A sixteen year old kid
went through such a horrific incident.
I was easily swayed into believing that he's okay.
And?
I said I loved him a lot, yet...
To Jang Jae Yul's pain...
Not even once...
I didn't try to identify with it deeply.
When Jang Jae Yul...
brought up stories of his hyung and his painful past,
did I really identify with it? I doubt it.
I did tell him it must've been hard for him, but
in my heart...
I told myself that I understood.
Because I'm a doctor.
What do you think? Aren't I cool?
I think I was acting arrogant.
When we slept together,
I saw him having a nightmare.
Since he's strong...
and free...
You'll overcome it.
I said it's your problem.
I think I looked away.
Don't be hard on yourself.
You didn't look away.
You trusted.
As a doctor...
and as a girlfriend...
I get an F.
I've been a selfish wench from birth.
I don't want him forcibly hospitalized. Is that possible?
I'll be back.
Fighting, Ji Hae Soo!
How is Jae Yul?
You're lonely?
What to do?
I have to write, but you're lonely, Mom.
Don't write.
Come to me and sleep over.
I can't.
Hi!
I came by because I miss you.
Am I forbidden since it's not Friday?
Should I leave?
I can't.
It's Mom.
Talk to her.
What's with my mom?
You're making a living now. You can take it easy with your writing.
Am I just a hobby to you?
I'll be dead before I can spend all the money you give me.
Don't write for me.
Come to me.
Mom.
Did something happen?
You've never said stuff like this before.
Kang Woo coughs and has shaky hands.
What kind of illness is that?
It's okay.
I just have a scratchy throat.
Mom...
Hae Soo is here.
Okay.
Mom, eat.
You didn't even eat dinner.
Go see Jae Yul.
I want to see you eat this.
You have to be alert.
Jae Bum is coming home on Saturday.
Eat.
So, I can feel at ease and go see Jae Yul.
The traces that Hae Soo was here, #3.
The traces that Hae Soo was here, #4.
Because someone like me with OCD misses you, I won't remove traces of you. I love you.
You've won me over 51%.
Your feet and your fingers...
Fine.
But you should shave instead.
That's not good when I write.
I guess you don't want pictures of my hands and feet.
Just because...
when I see him...
...he's a younger version of me.
Makes me want to protect him.
Kang Woo is...
Jae Yul's young self.
The bigger problem is...
getting injured while protecting Kang Woo
comes from his guilt about his hyung.
The fact that it's an unconscious self injury.
He has no idea.
But...
#4 hitter for the NY Yankees,
Do you know...
Henry Lou Gehrig?
I do.
He's the first ALS patient.
How do you know about that?
Do you like baseball?
I learned it in my neurology class.
How do you know?
Did I read it in a book?
I'm not sure.
I always want to...
put them on my forehead.
Hae Soo's hands.
She'll never stop walking.
Hae Soo's feet.
You're being good staying still.
I already gave you all.
You're a good boyfriend.
But...
if you were...
to get sick...
and are hospitalized...
...what's your worst worry?
Why do you say that?
At some point...
...everyone gets sick.
Not being able to write?
Even if you can't write,
I'll still like you.
When will you tell me you love me?
In any case...
if I can't write,
I'm not Jang Jae Yul.
How about Kang Woo?
He doesn't call me.
He doesn't answer his phone either.
You must be worried a lot.
I feel like he'll die.
He didn't win the writing competition and
he's sick on top of that.
I thought he felt better.
He lied.
He has...
...Lou Gehrig's disease.
When he called me,
while in front of the hospital...
...he didn't look good.
Did you go to the hospital with him?
No.
I didn't.
I was with you.
But...
the fact that he didn't look good in front of the hospital...
how do you know?
As if you're reading a novel or seeing a movie?
How would I know when Kang Woo is alone...
Yeah, really...
How would I know that?
Wow...
you look great again.
So nice.
You look tired.
Take a bath.
I thought you're working the night shift.
Can't I just look at you?
Tae Yong
What is it?
Tae Yong is in front of the house.
He's my friend, but I really don't like him.
See you tomorrow. It's Friday.
You can't just leave.
You smell like shaving cream. Wash up.
I love you.
I know it's very burdensome.
Like crazy.
The door is locked.
Where are you, Tae Yong?
See me right now.
The door is locked.
You're okay.
That's good.
I was worried.
Kang Woo.
Don't ever think that you're alone.
I'm by your side.
You know, right?
From the beginning to the end,
from the novels he wrote before...
...it's all cut and paste.
There's no trace of...
...new writing.
Last month's novel, too...
he did that for couple of months.
Come to think of it,
Jae Yul was acting strange since the day Jae Bum stabbed him with a fork.
It usually took him about eight months to write.
But it's taken over two years now.
There's not that many books, but...
he plagiarizes his own writing.
But...
I don't think he's aware of it.
Don't leave him alone for a moment.
Hae Soo.
There's no reason to diagnose any further with phenomenological methods.
An inability to eat and sleep.
An inability to write as a writer is...
...a clear dysfunction.
Function - a person's ability to perform a task.
On top of that...
I can't believe I only just noticed it now, but...
his unconscious effort to hurt himself...
...was evident.
He didn't take care of wounds and...
cornered himself in dangerous situations.
I'm certain suicide is clearly written in his scenario.
Suicide?
That's why Kang Woo has Lou Gehrig's disease and
can't become a writer.
He believes he will do something regretful.
It's an obvious answer.
Even though it may be unconscious, Jang Jae Yul
wants to kill himself leaving you behind. How did you understand that?
It must've been hard to accept that.
Wanting to kill himself leaving me behind...
there's no rhyme or reason.
It's a sickness.
Jang Jae Yul is sick.
That's my conclusion as a doctor.
At the moment where Jang Jae Yul doesn't acknowledge his own sickness,
willful hospitalization is impossible. Only forced hospitalization.
I know.
Hospitalize him for now.
We should control his active symptoms for now.
Active Symptom - signs and symptoms such as hallucinations that reflect an impaired ability to function.
I'll give you a call when the time is right.
I'll have an ambulance ready.
His family, too.
I'll talk to Dr. Kim.
Dr. Kim.
Where are you?
See me with Dr. Choi.
Tae Yong.
It's me, Ji Hae Soo.
I talked to the PD.
I told her.
Author Jang...
That he's sick.
He won't be able to broadcast his show.
Instead of metal bars, our mental ward has tempered glass.
Other hospitals should do this, too.
It won't open further than that for safety.
Even if...
you were to break the glass and jump,
we're on the second floor. No great injury...
Jeez...
Who can break 1-1/4 inches of tempered glass without a tool?
But...
how about a bathroom?
You share it.
He needs to be protected here.
My son...
can only sleep in the bathroom.
Ah...
with medication,
he'll be able to sleep well on the bed.
But for how long...
By chance...
it won't take months and years, will it?
That's what I read in books and on TV.
That can happen in rehab centers in the mountains.
That's for chronic patients.
For Jang Jae Yul's case, as quick as a month or...
two months...
That's what we access.
Two months, well...
That's doable.
I'm honored to work with such a group of established physicians.
The treatment for Jang Jae Yul
looks to be a most challenging, psychiatric case.
The reason being...
What perfect timing.
I just washed up.
Stop.
Why?
Stand there.
Why?
You don't want me to sit next to you?
I just want to see you.
How come you're so handsome? You make me so nervous.
How long do I have to stand here like this?
I want to hold you.
Hae Soo, it's me.
I have the ambulance ready.
When should I dispatch it?
I'll call you back.
I love you.
Let's stay like this for awhile.
Alright.
It's Okay, That's Love
We're in bed.
Are you my cure?
Should we go now?
I love you so much.
Jang Jae Yul isn't crazy. He's sick.
The reason we hospitalized you forcefully.
Do you know now?
Here...
I...
Go with me.
Let me go.
I was really happy because of you, Author.
No!